Let's keep things simple.

2009-08-16T11:59:00.000+08:00

I'm moving to another site. I'm seriously done here. Goodbye blogger. You duck sick. lol. Send me a tag here if you wanna be updated. Takecare ya'll.

Permanent.

2009-08-15T11:31:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog about now.I'm currently working on an assignment due Monday and blogger's pissing me so much that i find it very irritating to blog. Sigh i might move somewhere where it's easier to blog. See how lor. I've been real busy lah. Aaaaah stress stress. Okay,i'm off to Expo with family and bf later. I miss you lah,baby :)

I dreamt you into life.

2009-08-13T14:05:00.001+08:00

Hey fellow bloggers! Sorry i haven't been updating here and i know it's like collecting dust in this site of mine already but honestly i have no time to blog. My top priority right now is school and spending every free time i have with my boyfriend :) He has been such a sweetheart. Picking me up from school on days he just got home from work and such. He is truly a dream come true. Sounds corny right,but true lor. I miss alot of online babes when i was MIA. Atira! Sue! Eyya! Where you girls at? I miss you all so much i swearrrrrr. School has been hectic but it's a norm and i've sorta gotten used to it. The journey is looooong but quite calming in a way or two, i must say. I shouldn't complain much but instead i should rejoice and be thankful cos being in this school doesn't require me to study Math at all! Basically you just got to sketch your ass of,literally. Hahah oh well,i'm off to complete my 3D shit again. Submission is due tommorrow. FUCK. You might as well just kill me. I'm seriously done for.

Out.

2009-08-08T11:56:00.000+08:00

I will be at Sengkang the whole day today for a kenduri. My gram's first year death anniversary. I miss you,nenek :( So yeah,i won't have time to blog abt tmr too i guess. SMTG MAJOR IS HAPPENING TMR^^ And no ~.~ not national day eh. ahaha first month tmr dear :) LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! And happy pledge-reading @ 8.22pm tmr ya'll. SUPER LOL. I miss my bf very much right now. Behave at work pls amirul. i love you,silly.

Redundant.

2009-08-07T19:10:00.000+08:00

School today was okay :) I just got home like thirty minutes ago. I'll be out in an hours' time. To watch "UP" with family and boyfriend. OMGGGGGGGG I'm EGGSCITED! ^^ I'll update a proper post soon. I'll be busy during this weekend. Pls don't miss me,lol. Goodbye.

i still can't believe that you're with me.

2009-08-04T18:30:00.004+08:00

I just got up from a two-hour nap cos i slept like only,5 hours last night? hahhha i was damn shagged i must say. But right now,i'm still a tad bit sleeeeepy/groggy. School was fine today. I saw alot of people i know in the train otw to school today. Bumped into Matt who forced me to stand in the bus with him when he texted me,in the bus! Hahah i swear i thought he was stalking me when he texted me out of the blue with a "Go school so early one meh!".He kacau-ed me as usual and i just entertained him lah. Then got a text from an unknown number,from Ilham and he was on the same train as me.And Syawal,was sitting right infront of Alice(who happen to be right was beside me) Like -_______- idk why i dont like it when theres people i know boarding the same train as me. Tak favourite okay! haha. Lesson today was pretty mundane. There was this one time when i had to write the name of module i was having at that time and i turned to Gwen and asked her," What class are we in now?" She was like,"OMG Fira!" ahha. I'm that duuuhhhhhhh.Idk why i'm not really myself these few days. PMS,YOU FUCKING SUCK YOU KNNBCCB. GO AWAY FROM ME. Okay that felt goood. During last period today my class had this stupid shit LIBRARY briefing (can you believe it??!!) and it was pure torture,i tell you. I felt like slapping the speaker's face i swear. Eventually,Gwen Mai and I cabot from the library shit thing.Whooaaa kecoh rightt? Hahah run here,run there. Tired sia. Was supposed to meet up with Alice and Imah @ CHEERS but i had to rush off to meet my bf. Sorry girlssss! I brisk-walked with Gwen along the way cos bf was already waiting for me @ Bugis since 12+++? I left school round 1219. Dangggggg. By the time i met my bf,i was out of breath. Sorry bf i wasn't really myself today and i know i very perangai. I know you got worried but don't worry,it's just a nature of being a teenage girl. We argued alot of times today and i didn't really like arguing in public,i swear. Trust me,no more repeats k baby. I still love you alot honeybunch :) Trust that. Oklah,i'm getting hungry. Off to search for food in the kee-chen!

i love,i like,i miss you baby.

2009-08-02T11:27:00.000+08:00

I like the dead-centre guy:) There's really nothing much to blog about today cos it's only 11.15 in the morning. I slept at around 4 this morning cos i waited like a good girl for my dear bf to finish work as he had to work the night shift today. Pity him la hor. Luckily i didn't sleep again! Huhu^^ Hogged on the phone with baby and most of the time he talked crap as usual lah but nvm i always layan him one. What to do,sayang him too much already lah:) And sorry bf for being sucha crybaby last night. I hope you understand kay. I love you alot honeybunch. Tooo much already. I swear. Okay that was real cheesy but i meant every word of it. So maybe later after work i will be having laaate lunch with bf and family (without papa of cos) somewhere at jp. I miss my bf alot right now and i know he misses me tooo. Tsk baby i wanna see you laterrrrrr! He's currently at work right now and i hope he's doing his job well. Oh wth im starting to bullshit already. See lah,miss him too much until cannot talk in a proper manner. Tsk. I should get my assignment ready for tmr's class. Have a good sunny Sunday,people of the world. P/S: I love you friggin much,Muhammad Amirul.

Bummed/Tired/Sleepy.

2009-08-01T19:05:00.001+08:00

I just got up from a one hour plus nap like,ten minutes ago and trust me it fellt waaaaaaay longer than one hour. Hahah i'm still damn sleepy lah and bf suggested i went back to sleep but i didn't wanna cos it's gonna be Maghrib soooon so nvm. I was supposed to wait for my bf to finish work last night but this silly girl too tired already she accidentally slept. Again. Two times already sia,Fira. Now you owe him _______ (insert whatever here). Ha-ha.loooool today i got up round twelve and quickly checked my cell. "5 text messages from Mirul,baby". Replied his text then rushed to the bathroom to shower. Quickly got dressed cos it slippped my mind that Liya wanted to buy some stuff for her "friend" @ Bugis and we were supposed to meet Kak Ecah straightaway at Bugis. Upon meeting Kak Ecah,we had a bigggggg lunch. Like seriously,we had 5 plates of food on our table when there's like only the three of us. People were staring. WTH. Never judge a book by its cover hor :) We can eat alot manzxzxz. Then went to Bugis Street and i bought myself a new watch,a cute bracelet and earrings! Hahah oklah hor atleast it made me happy can already. After walking around the whole Bugis,us three were real bummed we dragged ourselves home. In the train,i didnt even get a seat lah. Knnbccb. My feet hurts bloody muchhh siak. The pain from wearing the Vans shoe yesterday still haven't subsided yet lah. So eventually i sat on the floor. Seriously, i didn't give a flying fuck about anyone. They don't fucking know how fucking bad my feet hurts sia. So whatever lah k. I need to rest my feeet. I DON'T WANNA WEAR SHOES TO SCHOOOOOOL ON MONDAY ^^ Maybe i shall bathe and go back to have my beauty sleep cos i will wait for my bf to finish work which is around 1230++am. I will be a good girlfriend today. Dear girl,pls don't fall asleep again! Hehe :) Bf,i miss your cute face lah. Sigh.

2009-07-31T20:06:00.001+08:00

Yesterday. was. awesome. lol. After what seemed like forever,i went on a date with boyfriend. He very irritating yknow,when i met him and asked him where we were heading, he said "i don't know". Wahhhpiang binget bangett. Heheh but luckily he think fast fast la.He insisted we went to Marina. I just went with the flow. When we reached Marina,*cricket sound*. NOTHING SIA. Cept construction shit and whatnot. Ha-ha baik ah mirul,wasted my ez-link fare only. SUPER LOL JK. Took MRT back to Raffles Place and had lunch. Thanks bf,i love you:) We were both full after that,we walked to Collyer Quay and sat under a shaded sitting place and talked. Talked about what's been happening in our lives and such. This is one of the reasons why i love my boyfriend,i can have real conversations with him and knowing that i can trust him with it and vice versa. After an hour plus or so,we were both feeling very hot so Mirul decided to catch a movie while catching some aircon. Headed to our usual place and he picked to watch Public Enemies @ 630. We were there at 4 plus so we has to kill like,two hours sia. Baby smoked for abit and i just watched. Aaaaah he looks hot when he smokes. Ok shhhhhhhhh! Bought drinks at 7-eleven and chilled with Baby thru out the 2 hours. Good movie choice ahhh,Mirul! I almost slept ehhh in the movie. Hahahah macam paham. After the "gerek to the max" movie,we went home. Baby bought some takeaway food and walked me home. Awwww,i swear i love you baybeeeeeee:) Today was yet another normal day. Which means there's school,luckily it starts at 1 and i have to meet Alice at JP at 1130am. As usual,we were early so we dropped by 7-11 and i got sandwich for bfast:) It was cheesingly orgasmic! Huhu^^ I love the cig that Alice is smoking,doesn't smell like smoke at all lah. Maybe bf should try that so he doesn't smell like cig ehh. Hehe. Lessons were okay today. Wasn't even stressed in 3D class cos i finally got the hang of it! Think i'm gonna be able to ace this class! Woohoo. Must be optimistic la righhttt. I paid a hundred percent full attention in 3D class but when it comes to Photography class,i slacked. So did Gwen and Mai :) Hehhe, my 1A girls! I texted bf up and chatted with him whilst writing in our diary. My photography cher talks so loud it's really irritating. Like,sheeeeshh. So later he gave us a break/time to do our assignment which was to snap 8 peektures of different lightings. Instead,Gwen Mai and I took our own sweet time and went to Cheers to grab a bite and took some last minute photos! We are rebels,yes. We were taking some pics when a senior talked to us and said his friend wanted to kenal-kenal with Gwen! Hahahahahah! Damn funnnnyyyyy siiiiaaaa. On the way home,i slept like a pig in the train. Tooo damn shagged already sia. And note to self : Never wear Vans shoe,especially when your school is a ten-minute walk from the MRT station!Hahahaha i dropped by bf's workplace for a short while and passed him our diary. He said i looked tired,well i WAS tired! Hahah i told him i'd be resting and here i am blogging. I'm dead meat. Oh well,i'm still gonna tell him that i blogged instead of resting later anyways. Lying is not in my blood,really. Bf pls takecare when your going home later :) I miss you,honeybunch.

Never fails to crack me up.

2009-07-29T22:30:00.003+08:00

Today in school was great. I was supposed to wake Alice up but instead SHE woke me up @ ten. When i already semangat set my alarm at 1015. Heheh but nvm i can have more time to get ready! :) Bf said he wanted to pass me the diary today but he texted me last minute saying he couldn't get out of work at tt point of time :( nvm next time can,i told myself. When i was already with Alice,suddenly this matrep(lol pls don't kill me for this,mirul) stood right in front of my very eyes. Who else? The bf lah. Haha you see lah,he like to cheat my feelings yknow. He's very bad,but what to do. I love him verrrrrrrryyyy much :) So i headed to school as usual with Alice. Arrived an hour before class starts. Had quick bfast and went for class. Cher was half an hour laaaaate! Dannng. Today's drawing class was all about proportions. -__- not my favourite. I prefer to do my still-life drawing free hand,please. Design Process class was awesome,as always. I had fun,fun,FUN! Formed a group with Gwen,Mai and Fiona. LOVES! After school met up with Alice and Imah @ Cheers cos they were doing they're own thaaang. Hehehehe. As usual,i sat and chilled. Walked together to MRT station.I think we should form a threesome group and call ourselves "Ira,Imah,Iza" But for sure that Alice in wonderland tknk laaaa. Name nak glamour je kannn babe! Heheh,pls don't slap me ehh. Tadi Fira da kene warning sia. Almost kene slap by tt minah sia. Hehehe k love you babe,peace:D As soon as we reached JP,went to POPULAR and bought Giogio hotdogs! OMG BABE! TRUEEE SHIT. They 're orgasmic! I WANNA HAVE GIOGIO NOWWWWWWWWWW. K i'm off to have a my usual late night conversation with bf. *eyebrows go up and down* Goodnight. p/s: I had a nightmare last night. Wonder why i've been getting nightmares lately. It's these things that make me treasure you a whole lot more,Mirul. I LOVE YOU,SILLY. Really.

Good girls go bad.

2009-07-28T14:30:00.002+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates lately. Ive been busybusybusy macam bee with school projects and assignments. School has been reaaal hectic lately i swear. I'll be totally bummed by the time i got home. Like yesterday for instance,lesson ended @ 6pm. By the time i got home,it was already 7 plus plus. And i had damn early lesson today. At 9,which means i have to get at 6 which also means i have to meet Alice at jp at 730. But today rightt,that minah lambat! Hehe. By the time i reached jp,she just woke up,wanting to get ready -______-. So i waited for her lor. This minah verrrrry kecoh yknow. End up,we cabbed to school. THANK GOD WE WEREN'T LATE EHH! We made it just in time. Phewww. Baiik. Instead,my lecturer was laaaaate! Like fifteen minutes late is not okay yknow! Hehe. But his class was extremely boringgggg. Me and Gwen almost slept in his class. Once we were done with our work,we were given a half an hour break. Since everyone in our class were still doing their own work and only me and Gwen were done with ours,we went for our lunch break and had sandwiches from Cheers. By the time we got back to class,we realised we were the only ones who left class to eat! Huhu. I have a whole bunch of assignments to complete. Aaaaaah patience,girl. Manage your time well. On the other hand,i miss my boyfriend hellla muchhhhhh :( Oh yea new blog song up,i fucking love this song. This song gives me orgasms cos it's sexy like that,yo! :) Off to meet boyfriend to do a good deed later. Byebye.

Second chance.

2009-07-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

Will be heading out with the people i miss in like half an hour or less :) I've finally completed my lines & dots assignments last night. I will be meeting my sick boyfriend later just to pass him some meds so that he'll get well soon :) alright,chiow. Have a lovely Sunday.

Perfect,just how you are.

2009-07-25T11:55:00.004+08:00

Okay,i take it back. I don't like schoool! :( Every Fry-day only that is. I had my first 3D design lesson today and OMG it's making me fucking stress i swearrr. I hate the fact tt my school thinks we're like super talented and always have high expectations of us. They'll give us a 30-minute lecture on their major then expect us to do it hands-on immediately. Like,hello. We're first years only. I swear i almost cried during 3D class yesterday. Me and Gwen were like exchanging "WTF" faces throughout the 2-hour lesson. Super uggggh. I think i'm gonna fail his class. Okay,be optimistic for once Fira. I'm the pessimistic optimistic kind of girl yknow? Does that even make any sense? Oh well. I've already finished my dots assignment last night. HOORAY. I still have these to complete: 1.Lines ass-ignment due TUESDAY (idk how to do this but alice said we're just gonna 'wing' it.) 2.Still-life drawing due WEDNESDAY. 3.3D pop art paper cutting shit due FRIDAY. And people on friendster/facebook are pissin me. I'll say it once and for all. IM NOT FUCKING INTERESTED. IM BLISSFULLY ATTACHED,YO :) I have deadlines to meet,people. Oh damn,there goes my weekends. So much for outing with family. I should probably work on my ass-ignments now. I miss my boyfriend. Though i saw him twice yesterday for only like,ten minutes? TSK. And did i mention he's sick? Pls get well sooooooon,love.

In your eyes,i'd like to stay.

2009-07-23T22:01:00.008+08:00

I got up late today,round eleven plus.I slept verrrrrry late last night due to some personal matters *smiles widely*. Cos i didn't have any class today. Hallelujah! :) My feet hurts from all the walking to school. Everyday without fail,me and Alice macam mak nenek sia complain complain complain abt how our feet hurts,how fucking painful our neck gets due to the weight of our bags and such. Sigh. Haha complain moment over. So i just read my bf's blog and it almost made me tear i swear. Tsk i wish i can help him in some way or another. I feel so useless/helpless/clueless what to say as words of comfort,really. I honestly suck at consoling people. Oh well,it's definitely not in my area of expertise. I went out with Mummy to Lot 1 today to shop for clothes and shoes @ Cotton On. Had dinner outside and went to JP to buy essentials. Okay,i'm feeling so very random right now and i think it's getting pretty obvious why. I have school tmr at 1 but i'll be meeting Alice at 10am,gonna work on our project :)Haiya,on top of all this i still have to stress abt school ass-ignments due in like 4 days' time. FUCCCCKKKKK. I doubt i have enough time. For once,just this once,have faith in yourself Fira. Boyfriend,there's not a single doubt in this world that i love you more than anything. Yes,even more than Hello Kitty and Wu Zun put together. Call me later okay. Oh shucks,i have no idea what to wear to school tmr. Alright,off to ravage (idk if thats even a word but i felt like saying it) my wardrobe now. Chiow humans :) goodnight. P/S: Yes,new song up. Listen to the lyrics baby :)

Fur-teeque.

2009-07-22T21:04:00.006+08:00

This is gonna be a long post. So take a breather before you read alright.So today was my third day of school. Can i say it's very tiring? Actually the school hours are pretty flexible. It's the walking tt i cannot tahan! Everyday walk for like 15 mins sape can tahan? OMG it's only the 3rd day of school and i'm complaining already.You have like three years to tahan sia Fira.And on top of that,my bag is always like fucking heavy lah.Full of my nonsense but haiya whatever lahh. So today my class starts @ 1pm but i left home round nine.WHY,you may ask? I gotta discuss a project with Alice (aka Minah Transformers today LOL)that's due Monday.FUCCCCKKKKK.Had a quick bite before class then lepak with Alice for awhile before class starts. I saw Ykid today! Happy sia. Heheh meet you again soon k bestguyfriend:)Hahah anyway,i met up with Gwen outside class so we can sit together. While waiting for Gwen i got a text from Alice. I laughed to myself siaaaa!Semangat pe joy masok class when your class haven't start yet? Class bapak kau eh? Lolz HAHA! Funny siaaa.Muke confirm priceless kann Alice?!LOL KEKEK AH LU GIRL:) And darling,i'm not pretty okay! You gotta stop saying that in your post,hehe. Your fucking sweet ah i tell you.Hehe and yes btw your face so the very cute/slenger/mrepek at times when you make stupid expressions.Damn funny lahh!I CAN LAUGH TILL MY STOMACH HURTS I TELL YOU(!!) Huhuhu. Love! I had design and composition class today.Cher was damn late lah.Suppose to start at one but she got in class at one-thirty.Step aje.Then she wanna set up the projector lagi.Da taktau handle tu step tak tau je kay.Macam nyonya sia the cher.Bebual english pon tak pass.Me and Gwen were like laughing at her "excellent" language.Second module i had design process by my favourite lecturer.We were like suppose to introduce ourselves with the paper that we got.So we had to draw whatever was stated in the paper and i got this "MY NAME IS _____ AND I AM HYPERACTIVE".I was like *blank* Eventually i drew candies cos they make me hyperrrrr! Haha i had fun during the poster making session which we were given ONLY 30 mins.I thought for like 15 mins which only left me with another 15 mins to work on a poster with the theme "WHAT IS CREATIVE?" Thank God i brought along a mag with me! So i ripped out random pieces of article then pasted them on the given sheet of paper and made a collage.I was quite happy with my short and sweet presentation(cos i was the last one so i wanted to make it snappy so everyone can go hoome!) I was the only one who made a collage and my lecturer even added tt she loved collages too. So hopefully i'll be awarded extra marks for tt since it will be graded :) I quickly rushed to Artfriend after school to meet Alice and walk to the MRT station together with her.I dropped by at Jeast to meet the boy i miss for dinner. We walked to IMM and had dinner @ Spaghetti Too.Thank you boyfriend for the dinner.AWESOME!After dinner,we quickly rushed to the MRT station cos my baby was already late for his night class:)I miss him already. AND OMG BABY,I LOVE YOU MUCHHH FOR THE POST IN OUR DIARY:) Hehe he is currently on the way home from class,and i really wanna text him right now. My fingers are getting tired,my body's aching,my neck's straining. AHHH i should really STOP complaining. Maybe my boyfriend's right. I tend to get all angry at myself when i start ranting. Ahhhh. Goodnight dear humans of the world. Gawd,i suddenly feel sexy.DAAAANNNNG! SUPER LOL that was random. Chiowwwww!

Lovedrunk.

2009-07-21T16:29:00.003+08:00

School lasted for only three hours today. Three fuckin hours,i tell you. And got one girl,so semangat da sit bebual2 macam mak nenek with her friend in one class,check2 salah class lah sia dier. Paiseh kape? Hahah lol. Anyways,i managed to make 3 new friends today. Gwen,Mai and Fiona. PRETTAYE SEXY PEOPLE! :) NOTE TO SELF: There's an Artfriend right opposite your school,girl. Pls jangan pandai pandai penatkan diri to go at Bras Basah one. And today Fira shopping sakan pt Artfriend. I think everyday also kena buy stuffs lah. I will be a regular customer one for sure.TSK! Hehe.After school,had lunch @ BK with Alice for awhile. Met up with my bf jap at JP with Alice and Mummy. I miss my bf now boohoo:( Hahah happy people sia you two! Alice in Wonderland,you are truly my happy pill. Being with you i can laugh until i pee i swearrrrrr!I will always get high when you do silly stuffs. HAHA! I know you know. LOL. And pls don't be sad cos you didn't get your orgasmic chicken wing today. Tmr cannn okay!!Huhu meet you tmr baybeh<3>

You're everything i wannnt.

2009-07-20T21:14:00.005+08:00

First day of school today. I have cute pretty friends ya'll! Hahahah but six hours in the classroom,pantat pain sia. One break aje for 6 hours? C'mon lah. Thank you bf and mummy for picking me up after school today. I feel so blessed! Huhu. YEEEAY. Tmr luckily only 3 hours in school sia. Atleast i have Alice in Wonderland (inside joke)with me as a companion to school tmr! Huhu. I'll update sooon okay. I'm like,seriously shagged. Goodnight. Bf,pls rest also i know you're verrry damn tired. I love you mirul:) ♥♥

Can't help but love you more.

2009-07-19T18:13:00.008+08:00

Today was a pretty F boring day. Okay,not pretty but very. Haha. Supposed to head out but in the end plans were cancelled. Uggggh nvm k forget it. No use harping on the matter cos whatever it is,i'm still typing on this fucking keyboard,sitting on this fucking chair and typing on my fucking blog while listening to some nice fucking songs. Woohoo^^ Cursing works huh? Sorta therapeutic for me,i must admit. Hahah to my dear boyfriend who is experiencing some problems of his own,chill pls. Your blog post like scary like that sia. You'll get thru it eventually,like you always do. Hang in there,handsome boy (!!) Love you. Yesterday i met up with my girlfriends plus one guyfriend,Nad Susila Farah and Danny. Oh yeah,i brought my sister along too :) We watched Harry Potter and the half blood prince. The two and a half hour movie was worth the watch! Journey in the MRT home was fucking awwwsome. Nad,as usual was veryyyyy hyperr. Makin malam,makin hyperrrrrr eh kau,Nad? Kenape eh???? LOL. I laughed like nobody's business sia. I got high by own laughter last night. I swear Danny was embarrassed lah cos he was standing next to me. He was like, "Eh diam ah korang,orang tengok siaak." Hahah kite tak peduli pon. And Danny right,very jakon see my phone so excited gitu you know! Hahahah very funny lah he. I had super FUN last night. But i missed my boyfriend a whole lot lah. Sorry i didn't stay up and wait for you last night sayang. Hog otp with you later tonight! ♥

P/S: Sister is gonna kill me cos i think i MIGHT fall in love with purple. Say goodbye to me.

P/S/S: SCHOOL TMR! OMGGGGGGGGG nervous oiiii.

Quick shoutout.

2009-07-17T21:48:00.006+08:00

I've only got like,two minutes before my sister is out of the bathroom so i'll make it snappy. I would like to give a shoutout to my dear boyfriend,pls get well sooooooooooooooon! I love you,and it was indeed a delight seeing you just now,even though it was just for like,ten seconds (or shorter). I did a small favour for my bf today and it made me a reaaaal happy girl to know tt he appreciates it. Bf,i swear i'd be with you thru it all. IMISSYOUAMIRULBABY!

That's what i thought.

2009-07-17T15:43:00.003+08:00

Like finally after contemplating which schoolbag to get,i bought the purple bag instead of the brown one. Thanks to the constructive comments from my boyfriend,that is. I loved both bags but he said the brown colour was like nyonya2 colour so i immediately killed the thought of buying the brown one. And yes,i'm verrrrrrrry semangat cos school is starting! Aaaaaaaahhhhh but idk what to bring on Monday. Just lecture pad and pencilcase,perhaps? I have to pray very hard that i get well by then. I know bf's very worried about me,cos it seems like i haven't made any progress in recovering. Pls stop worrying okay baby. I will be fine. Insya'allah. And omg,i miss you helllllll muchh sayang!

P/S: Heading out with my pink slip girls plus danny tmr. OMGG EXCITED MUCH? I miss korang. Camwhore tmr! :)

From the bottom of my heart,

2009-07-16T13:18:00.007+08:00

Since i've been coughing non stop for the past week,Mummy got worried and took me to a polyclinic yesterday. And get this,i waited for two and a half hour sia just to get consultation from the darned doctor! And sitting in a germ-infested area with a mask on,i swear i could've died right there and then! Okay,that was me going to the extremity. But i was complaining alot to Mummy la. Hehe. After the wait,we went to Lot 1 where i ate Pastamania and actually finished my foood (!) Major accomplishment? My bf would be damn proud,i tell you. So right now,i'm supposed to eat meds after my food. I slept like a baby yesternight. Drowsy meds,you really helped. I haven't had that peaceful of a sleep in months! Geez,atleast you're good for something. I'm looking forward to Monday.Supernervouslyexcitediwannascreamandshout.Bt somehow i don't know what to anticipate. New faces,new surroundings. Truth be told,i'm really not good with new people. But i guess i have to try to mix around and mingle and such. Oh the hassle of making new friends and hoping they'll like you for who you are. Oh well,we'll see how things go on Monday. Keep your fingers crossed,Fira. Hell yeah,i've yet to get new stuffs for school. The search for a new schoolbag is still on. And yes,i'm very picky. Most prolly i will be heading to JP with Mummy later to look for it. Again. Boyfriend is currently @ home,resting and i miss him. He's got class later and pls eh b don't be lateeeeeeee today:) Alright,i'm off to eat my meds now. Chiow. Fira,pls get well soooooooooooooooooooooonnnn. I'm sick of being sick. Ugggggh.

I think you should know this ♥

2009-07-15T20:05:00.005+08:00

I had my school orientation today. I left home round nine. Was supposed to meet that bestfriend of mine but he was lateeee lah. But nvm,first time meeting him so give him chance lorr. Mr Ykid,you owe me lunchhhhhh! :) I don't care,hehe. But we instantly clicked,thats the good thing(!) Atleast it made me feel less nervous knowing that i already knew someone righttt. He is without a doubt irritating and also funny,kept me laughing like whut but i'll eventually get used to it! 3 years i have to bear with him yknow,lol.No choice already. Kidding aje okay. Orientation was ______ i almost fell asleep halfway i swearrr. After the one-hour plus briefing,he looked at me and said "You understand?" I was like, "NOOOO". Kay bestt. But sadly,we're not in the same class that means we won't see each other everyday :( Nvm can make new friends! I enjoyed today alot. I made a new friend today,her name is Mira :) Looking forward to monday. Till then,i'll enjoy my last few days of no-school stress! I miss my boyfriend right now:( Call me later okay baby. I miss you. Soooo much.

Excited.

2009-07-14T11:41:00.011+08:00

credits to sue.

Sorry for the lack of updates lately,i've been lazy. All i can say is these past few days have been super funnn! Thanks to a couple of people,especially my dear boyfriend. Speaking of which,i love you b:) He's currently at work right now. Dear God, pls make sure he arrives home safely. I will be meeting him later on for a date(!) Oooooooowheeeee excited much? See you later boyfriend ♥

P/S: School orientation tmr morning! Aaaaah freaking nervous ah i tell you. NB. Wish me luck!

(Edited)

I went on a movie date with my boyfriend today. Our very first date as a couple:) Someone was abit late yesterday but nvm it's okay. Someone was also verrrry selenger yesterday. I swear i cannot stop laughing sia. Our own dirty little secret eh b? Wink. End up,he kena teased with me the whole day. Super funnnn teasing you baby. So we watched "The Haunting in Connecticut". Honestly the movie was not tt scary la,more of a suspense thriller kind of movie tt makes your heart beats damn fast! lol. On the way home we stopped at JP for a while. Thanks baby for the doughnuts! He bought a dozen yknow,for my whole family sekali. Sweeeet right? I know. Hehe. He's that sweet,how can i not love him? Oh wth,i love you soooo friggin much,boyfriend ♥

Not well.

2009-07-11T23:37:00.002+08:00

caramelfrappecheesecakeboy.

hellokittyjapgirrrrrl.

belated b-day cake. I haven't been feeling well these days due to my cough. And now,it's gotten worse. It's really getting on my last nerve lah. And the cough medicine is f-ing bitter summore. Nb righttt. Okay anyway so i just got home from jp with mummy ben and leeya. My main intention was to buy tt billabong pencilbox i wanted so much but it wasn't really to my liking. Maybe i'll get a different one tmr. After having dinner @ Sakura,we walked around the whole jp (ok so not really) then we had dessert at my favourite place. I got my favourite "dessert" there mah! HEHEHE:) Okay so right i was real happy to see my boyfriend working :) But little did i know i would get extremely sickkk in front of him. Super siann lorr. I think i've had abit too much too eat. Either that or it's cos my stupid cough irritated my throat,hence i jumped up from my seat and ran to the toilet and barfed. Major ewwwww. And the ladies toilet at a certain place at jp is soooo filthy got cockroach lah! Super disgusting. When i got back,my boyfriend asked me whether i was okay cos for sure i looked like shit lah. Then leeya went "Awwww you've got the sweeteest boyfriend everrr!" Hahahah ahh yes i know. Do be jealous! LOL. Before i got home i managed to talk to my baby for abit. He's currently still working right now. Baby,takecare and be careful when you're walking home later okay. Call me later. I miss you. I love you.

P.S: Dear me,get well soon and stop making your boyfriend worried :)

Now it's all about us.

2009-07-10T13:38:00.008+08:00

After searching for more than a hundred blog skins,i finally settled for this one. Fira carik blogskin tak dapat macam nak nangis pon ader sia. Emotional pe? LOL. And yes the current song on my blog is my favourite song by a genius,Taylor Swift. I love the lyrics to this one. ENJOYYYYYYY. I had difficulty sleeping yesterday night. Idk how,ok so maybe i do. I was pretty sure i was very sleeeepy after i ended my phone conversation with my boyfriend but as soon as i hit the sheets,my mind instantly went hyperrrrrrrrrr! Okay no more redbull before sleeping fira. I can say i blame my sister cos she influenced me to drink redbull round midnight. Tskkkkk okay no more. Boyfriend pls don't marah me when you read this. Sorrrrrrry:( So school's gonna start for me in abt a week's time. Excited much? YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Orientation's in 5 days sia. I'm excited plus nervous to be meeting new people who's into the same stuffs as i am. Weird much? Well,let's see how kay. My boyfriend's currently at work and right now i'm missing him alot lah. Cannnn? Baby i miss you. P/S: Atira miss jambu,why can't i tag at your blog eh? lool tag me once you've read this okay darling :) i miss you pretty.

Captioned.

2009-07-09T20:47:00.003+08:00

I just got home from having late lunch with my boyfriend,plus mummy and Ben at Teh Tarik. End up,we both didn't finish our food. Haha. After having lunch,we parted ways with mummy and Ben. My boyfriend and I bussed to JP where we just sort of hang out. I love talking to him. He's always willing to lend me a listening ear when i needa talk,basically about anything. Though sometimes i talk too fast until he cannot catch what i say,i still know he cares. I always feel secured when i'm around him. I love you b and you know it.

You have no idea how i feel inside

They say you'll never know till you're in love

You promised me you'll stay by my side

I always get this feeling that you're sent from up above

You give me all the love i deserve

And with each passing day i love you more and more

It's these little things that i adore you for.

He respects my space.

2009-07-09T12:56:00.006+08:00

So it's official. I am in a relationship with someone right now. Yes,i'm blissfully attached. To Muhammad Amirul,the love of my life. I have to admit i was pretty shocked when he finally asked. But yes,i'm a reaaaal happy happy girl. Like AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. He is the reason i smile everyday,my pet parrot,my laughing gas,my irritating boyfriend. He's the only one up in my heart and noone can ever take his place everrrrrrrr.

Muhammad Amirul,

I'm gonna marry you someday despite your smoking habits

and irritating traits.

I LOVE YOU.

Is forever enough?

2009-07-08T20:05:00.006+08:00

Is it really possible to feel this way about a person? It's like ive never been here before. Okay,i lied. But i haven't felt this good in God knows when. All this time i was too afraid to let anybody else in but when it comes to you,oh how easy it all sounds. I don’t know how to describe this feeling. It’s like I want to tell you I finally understood your feelings and mine. I've finally sorted out my thoughts. And it all really comes down to you,and only you. You're the only one i'm constantly thinking about. I want you to know me inside out,when nobody knew the real Afira Fairuza. I want to let you have that privilege of really understanding this eighteen year old girl,without ever questioning my credibilities and such. But i guess i was wrong in trying to tell you everything cos you already knew. I never needed to tell you anything. You knew exactly how i felt. When i'm angry,you'll feel it too. When i'm sad,you'll share my sorrows with me and never fails to give me countless consolations and most importantly never giving up on me,no matter how stubborn i can be. You knew all along. You knew exactly who Afira Fairuza was-the girl noone thought they could ever make sense of. You were like the answers to my prayers. Tell me now,

HOW CAN I NOT LOVE YOU?

P/S: Goodluck for your O level malay oral tmr baby.

sevenseconds.

2009-07-07T20:13:00.009+08:00

I had an awesome time with you at the library today. Even though you were pretty irritating most of the time,i still love you b. Cos you're just being you. Huhu. Better study your Chemistry okay :) Next time better get all your answers right! Don't give up baby. I'll always be here for you. After library-ing,we headed to LJS @ JP for lunch cos somebody's stomach was growling lol. In addition,someone skipped his Art class today and when his friend texted him asking if he would be attending class or not,he replied this "Aku tak datang ah. Aku MC. Kene Sars ah." Amirul,i swear you are the king of bullshit. No matter what,i still love you kay. Peace. Mwaaaaaaaahhhh!

(TAG REPLIES)

Azyan:Thankyou very much darling. It's okay,thanks for remembering!App it loadds k:) Syirah:Hehe thanks sayang. And yes i love calling you insyirah. Huhu. Nurulatiracp:Thanks a bunch my jambu girl. Sweet post abt me. Eh no you laagi pretty siaaa! Nafisah:Thanks lots honey! Maii: Thanks thanks love. Leeya:Pasal dier special,kau tak. lol jk! Peace k sis. Mairaa: LOL the "T" word tu tak perlu ehh sayang.Imy oi! lol

Legal.

2009-07-05T11:12:00.010+08:00

Happy Birthday,Afira Fairuza. A big girl now. Better act like one lol. Thanks to all those who wished me,either by text calls or facebook. I love each and every one of you :) THANKYOUSOMUCH! I'd like to thank these people.. (in no random order)

Mummy
Papa
Liya
Ben
Amirul ♥
Sue
Aidil (Happy birthday to you also!)
Adnan
Maira
Anis
Fickey
Kak Ecah
Natasha
Aunty June
Insyirah
Joanna
Miao Hua
Azyan
Atira
Maii
Nafisah
Farah
Danny
Nadiyah
Susila

For those who i've yet to mention,maybe it's cos you haven't wish me yet(!!!) LOLLLLLLLL.

Have a good 5th July pretty people. Ive got a wedding to attend. Super bleargh.

p/s: Baby,thank you for the gifts you gave me yesterday. I super love you i swearrrrrrrrrrr.♥

I shall post abt yesterday sooooooooooon,or whenever i have the time.

(4th July 2009)

The day before i legally turn eighteen. I went out with that irritating boy i love hell much. He didnt plan where to go lah. When he met up with me then he told me where he wanted to go. So he picked to head to Vivo :) He was rather famished so he picked to give me an advanced birthday treat @ Pastamania. Sweeeeet right? lol we both had our favourite-beef lasagne. I ordered my all-time favourite drink,strawberry soda. YUMMMM. After filling up our stomachs,he decided to watch a movie. He insisted we go to the place we had our first date,at TB.(Shhhh secret lah lol k lame) Since he made most of the choices that day,i had to pick which movie to watch else he get irritated. Hehhe. So i decided to watch Ice Age 3. loool super funny lah. Atleast i enjoyed it. Huhu ^^ After the movie we joined Mummy and the two kids @ Swensen's for dinner. After dinner,that boy "kidnapped" me for a short while and i had to accompany him to his home,where he presented me with my advanced birthday gift. It was friggin sweet i tell you. Then he walked me home,underneath the moonlight. It was the most memorable time of my eighteen years of life i swear. As soon as i got home,i waited patiently for midnight to come by (though one hour seems like foreverrrrrr) before i opened up my presents and the card he presented me with. I opened my gifts with much enthusiasm and i was thrilled! He gave me two bars of my favourite Ritter Sport chocolates plus an Escada perfume,which i love by the way. I'm addicted to the smell just as much as he is:) I have had the most awesome birthday cos you made it all worthwhile baby. I can never thank you enough,really. A big big piece of my heart goes out to you. *HEARTS*

East girl meets West.

2009-07-03T13:04:00.006+08:00

Finally like after 151201576303 days of not meeting,i met up with SUE ♥ Since she’s taking driving lessons nearby,i thought i’d meet her up for early dinner. So Sue decided to eat @ PASTAMANIA. looooool i’m a huge pasta fan but yesterday was my first time eating there. See how ironic that is? End up we both didn’t finish our pastas. But i did enjoy my Strawberry soda though :) YUMMMMMMM. After lunch,our mouths smelled like cheese. LOL . Sue wanted to take some snapshots so we decided to head on to Bukit Gombak. Yes i’m so jakon i’ve never been there before! So we took some shots but i was still unsatisfied with the way i look in those pictures. We talked about practically anything and i loved our heart to heart girl talks (♥) p.s: Joke of the day “OH BURUNG!” (Baik uhh Fira.) Sue please don’t laugh at me anymoreeeeeeeeee. Love you baby. I miss my darlingbabysweethearthandsomeboy today.

BURGER KING.

2009-07-02T14:54:00.003+08:00

I had an awesome time with someone very special yesterday.Though it was short,it was worth it. But this time i brought my little brother along. Without a doubt,more kecoh lah. But luckily he can layan my brother's perangai la. Wah wah,he pamper my brother like whut seh. Kan b? Everything Ben wants,he will sure give one. Wahh jealous sia. Hahahah so we ate at Burger King. Thank you imaginary boyfriend for your treat! Love you. Heheheh even though i didn't really eat much,kena force lagi ader. But nvm i know you're just concerned bout my well-being. After lunch,we went to Kiddy Palace cos my brother wanted to survey some stuffs for his friend. After that,we bid goodbye to my imaginary boyfriend cos he has to attend class. I just met him yesterday but i miss him very much already :( He said he misses me too. Boo,see you sooooooooooooon.

I was in your arms tonight.

2009-06-30T13:13:00.006+08:00

Muhammad Amirul,you made me feel like a little girl again yesterday. I haven't felt that good in a real long time. Thanks for the movie! ♥ ILOVEYOUVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRYMUCH. I know you know but i know you love hearing me say it,you cheeky boy. I'm looking forward to our next date together baby(!!) Baby i tira-miss-you already :( See you later hun xxoxxo. P.S: I'm alil disturbed by that Sue wannabe on TUMBLR. Like hello,get a life please. Stop tryna be a carbon copy of my scandal. Tssssk sad life these people got manxzxz. On another note,it's pretty hilarious when you think of how pathetic they can get. Hahahaha:)

Time please go by faster.

2009-06-29T16:12:00.009+08:00

Im sitting here in front of my pc waiting for time to pass by. Time seems to pass by so slow. I am waiting for my clock to show 440 and i will leave home and meet him. Our very first official date. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah nervous plus excited much. See you later ,handsome boy :) P.S: Only God knows how i'm feeling right at this instant. (Continued @ 10.29pm) I just got home from my movie date with that handsome boy. Aaaaaaah he sungguh irritating but he's also very very very very sweet. Awwwww. Someone cannot not touch his hair every other five seconds or so. I never say you ah b. i said someone only. Don't terase. Hehehehe. Transformers:revenge of the fallen was indeed a good movie to watch but it's a lil too draggy. Dontcha think? Someone got sleepy and kept yawning but still tak mengaku he sleepy lah. Okay sorry b. Pls don't pinch me again. Pain you know! Boo. But but i love the way i rest my head on your shoulders and the way you'll touch my face. Too much too handle? Aaaaaaahhhh,luckily i remembered to breathe with him around. ^^ I shall sleep with a big smile on my face. I'm a very happy girl right now. Mwaaaahhhh! ♥♥

Wedding ♥

2009-06-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

I had to attend a wedding at Tampines today. I didnt want to but kena pakse la so no choice lorrr. Have to fake a happy face kan afira:) Not happy because my STM Papa told Mummy last minute. Biiiiiiinget okay. Ahhh nvm. Then my uncle dropped Papa off at the airport then we rounding rounding the whole Changi. From the naval base sampai the prison area there. So jakon lorr we all. Especially the boy in the picture beside me. Someone’s favourite boy but he already said i’m his personal favourite so i trust him kay. Peace. So enough about today. Pretty long day today. I’m shagged but i miss someone. I miss you,handsome boy. I had my hair done yesterday at PS. Credits to Aunty for the super advanced birthday present:) ILOVEYOUTHIIIIIIISMUCH. Kay definitely more than that. My hair’s shorter now but i love it cos it’s got volume:) Wheeeeeee. Someone’s turning 18 in a weeks’ time. Excited much? :)

Awwsome.

2009-06-26T15:52:00.008+08:00

Mirul . . . says:
awaaaaaak!!
Mirul . . . says:
cn u wake me up ltr..??
Mirul . . . says:
pls..
Mirul . . . says:
?
I say:
what time sayang?
Mirul . . . says:
5?
I say:
okay can baby.
Mirul . . . says:
baby u bck..
Mirul . . . says:
thanks!
Mirul . . . says:
heee..
Mirul . . . says:
thank u fira manje!
I say:
looooool bye sayang. now can go sleep?
Mirul . . . says:
yah..
Mirul . . . says:
i try..
Mirul . . . says:
heh..
I say:
Okay bye sayang. dont think of me too much
until cannot sleep horrrrrrrr.
I say:
LOL
Mirul . . . says:
heee..
Mirul . . . says:
yeeee!!
Mirul . . . says:
ill call u jap lagi..
Mirul . . . says:
haahaa..
I say:
-_____- bye la b.
Mirul . . . says:
bye..
Mirul . . . says:
sayang.. bye..
I say:
sayang u too byeeee.
Mirul . . . says:
saaaaayaaaang u more than i sayang my.... erm... hair? haha..
Mirul . . . says:
bye!!!
I say:
-______________________- bye BABYYYYY! go sleeep cuteypie.
Ten minutes later,he called. WHY,you may ask? Cos he said he cannot sleep without hearing my voice. AWWWW. Sweeeeeet much? Very manje la horrrrrrrr. Hahaha. I saw him at his workplace today and he was happy(!) Wah first time he said he's happy to see me. Kan b? looool summore can steal glances at me during work. Ahhhhhhhh you ahh. Handsome boy. Cannot tahan leh see your face. Gugugagagugugagagugugaga. I better go eat now cos i havent had anything to eat since last night. ♥ Speaking of last night,i super love our phonecall yesterday night. *melts* Hush hush baby.

MICHAEL JACKSON- R.I.P.

imissyou:(

p.s: i shed tears when i got to know about this.

asthoughimallyoucansee.

2009-06-25T15:17:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SCANDAL BABY,SUE. Happy 18th!

ILOVEYOUMORETHANALLTHECHOCOLATEINTHEWORLD!

Meet you soon baby.

Younameinmyheart.

2009-06-24T14:06:00.011+08:00

You see?It's times like this when i feel like hugging you like kf.skdhs. IADOREYOUTHIIIIIIIIIIISMUCH. I love msn conversations with you,good-looking.

OH-EMM-GEE,

Youdontevenknowhowveryspecialyouare.

2009-06-23T20:39:00.005+08:00

I said something i shouldn't have yesterday night on the phone. You irritated me as usual,no surprise but i guess i already had enough and i accidentally called you an "asshole". SORRY! I didn't mean what i said. I didn't mean to put down the phone on you. I thought wrong. Yes,i'm that biadab. So bloody rude right. Uggggh. You and your foul mouth,Fira. I'm terribly sorry b:( You were nice enough to let it go. I appreciate it that you weren't harping about that matter,instead you was worried i would get sick. Awwww. ILIKEYOUMANYMANYMANYMANYMANYMANYMANYISWEAR:)

IMISSYOU.

2009-06-22T21:35:00.001+08:00

Today. I hope you had a blast today. Even though i was frantically waiting for your text like a little girl,i was certain you were having fun with your friend:) I missed you alot today i swear. The phonecall we had yesterday made me slept like a baby. Ok,not really. But it definitely made me smile to sleep. You have been so manja with me these days. Ngade ngade righttt? But nevermind for you only kay,cutepute.You know i know we know. Telepathy baby:) GOLLYGOSHGOSH. I love hearing your breaths on the phone. I love hearing your cute sleepy voice also. K best. Wuhuuu. Mister good-looking,pls call me later. Mwaaah.

Getting better.

2009-06-21T21:19:00.005+08:00

Thank god these few days you have been nothing but super sweet and i appreciate you for that. Like yesterday,i waited for your(like you instructed me to) call after work,which was round 2am. Nevermind,anything for you k stm boy. You still managed to make me laugh and scream on the phone even though you were pretty shagged from work. Thank you very much pretty boy:) sayang kau. Ha-ha inside joke. Anyway so right,i finally got to see that cute boy yesterday. Happyhappyhappy(!!) Your ____ looks fine okay b. You may be unsatisfied with it but i like the way it looks now. Please don't be so vain. Mummy already say you handsome boy kan. Pls jangan kembang ehh.

I have secret.

That is that i miss you f-ing much,mirul.

I swear.

Shhhh okay.

What does it matter to you?

2009-06-18T17:07:00.007+08:00

I thought yesterday was the end of it. But hell no. I didn't wake up to your text again this morning and i knew something was very wrong. Then you texted me at 3 plus (like finally) and you asked me wether i was okay or not. A big 'F' random bodoh. I'm through with this. Am i,really? Nb.

Monday: ARGUE

Tuesday:ARGUE

Wednesday:ARGUE

Thursday:ARGUE

Friday:ARGUE

Saturday:ARGUE

Sunday:ARGUE

Tell me,who can tahan? Even supergirl also cannot take it la. UGH. I keep this in my head "Brace yourself girl." And i always wish your sorry's are enough. &#%#@!&(()))@*(#&*#^#&*!*(!()

Reality Check: It's not.

Fig Buck.

Sorry,put the blame on me.

2009-06-17T20:35:00.008+08:00

After how many months,i just got home from meeting two of my bestfriends Aidil and Wank met up with me under my void deck. And guys,pls cut the act ehh. Jangan nak step da lame sampai. Check2 lain cerite. Cheat my feelings only ahh korang! Grrrrr. We catch up with recent stuffs tts been happening and all. You two boys made my day:) Mister someone,pls no more. I can't take it. Everyday without fail. Pls just stop. I miss you. I kept this post as a draft cuz i had to do something and i came across this other draft. It reminded me of an ex. Someone i cherished. I still cherish him and he's always up in my heart no matter what. This was what it said:

When im with you, i feel alive.you bring to me a happiness that no one else could.you bring to me a love i have nvr known before.i could not imagine what my life would be like without you.you have touched my heart in ways no one could ever comprehend.i love being with you and i wanna spend the rest of my life with you. everyday i wake up thanking god for you.you have given me so much, and idk if i will be able to give back all that you have given me.you have been my guiding light when i was lost.you have been my comforter through all my trials and sorrow.sometimes i feel lost and out of touch, bt when ur there, i feel safe.your voice soothes me.i could sit here and try to tell you just how i feel, bt i cant find the words other than im ecstatic we met and have gotten together after all that we've been through. i want to tell you that the love i have for you is undying.it is a love that is strong and enduring.it is a love that will stand the test of time.i truly feel blesssed that you have become a part of my life, and i cannot wait for the day that we can join our lives together.i want to lie next to you at night and fall asleep in your arms.i want to wake up to ur beautiful smile.i want to share in ur joys and sorrows.i want to be ur everything, because you are everything to me. i promise to always love you and always hold you in my heart.i will always be here for you if you need me, and i will love you no matter what life brings us.you are my soulmate, and i vow to love you all eternity. itrulyloveyoubaby!

That was US 8 months ago.

R.I.P

What am i doing?

SHIT.

Super Stm Boy.

2009-06-16T12:24:00.008+08:00

Dear blog,yesterday was a good day indeed. First and foremost,i woke up to M's text. Mesti lah happy rightt. Second thing that made me happy was yesterday was his off day. So tt means more time for me! Huhuhu^^ Little brother wanted to go swimming yesterday so mummy and i brought him to Jwest Swimming Complex (kan?). As usual,i didn't swim.As much as i love swimming and haven't done tt in a real long time,i don't enjoy swimming around with half-naked men. At all. Super irks me much. I spent my time reading my novel and texting M instead. 3 days of not irriating me,he irritated the hell out of me yesterday. Wah piang,cannot tahan sia. And i have a new nickname for him,Super Stm Boy. Tell him something,ten minutes later sure lupe. Tak boleh harap! TSK. Yesterday=Countless arguments. He calls me gangster cuz he said i always carik pasal with him and forever scolding him:( Sad right? Padahal he also at fault. Cannot la,this time i give in ok b:) Then yesterday night he asked me wether i wanted him to call.

M:You want me to call or not?

F:Anything. Up to you kay.

M: I'm asking you la!

(Da kena shout at,have to say YES la kan)

F: lol okay yes yes.

M: Your yes is not like "YES OF COURSE!" I'll consider la.

F: -__- finefinefine.

M: Kidding la b! Heee nak i call tak?

F: YUPPY YUP YUPS!

(sarcastic much?)

M: Okay,you wait. Call you jap lagi.

We can fight over the slightest things i tell you. Hahaha. But i swear yesterday i loved you for calling me up after three days of not having to hear your voice. Rindu you know! Haha and b pls stop repeating everything i say. Da sah parrot ah kau! Heeeee.

P.S: Due to unforeseen circumstances,i won't be seeing him till say,next month?(might be longer) Boohoo. But nvm,i'll be strong for your sake b:)

Oh,we're special in our weird little way.

Baby i figured you out,i think.

2009-06-14T12:26:00.004+08:00

These couple of days have been pretty mundane. Got up late and such. Lazy days mostly. Also,these past two days have been weird. I didn't wake up to your daily 9.15am text no more. Instead,you'll text me at irregular times of the day. For like 10 minutes only. 10 minutes in the day,10 minutes at night before you head on to bed. When i replied your text,you didn't reply:( Nvm,i understand. I think. If only i could buy just 30 full minutes of your time,without any distractions. God i swear i'd cherish that half an hour,mister foreverbusybee. Geez,i know your busy with work and by the time you get home,you're shagged. Trust me,i understand. I just wish i can stop feeling left out. Yes,i feel neglected. I'm sorry but sorry just doesn't cut it this time round. Prove it please b:( P.S: To my darling sister,please pull thru okay. And to a certain human being who cause her pain,all i can say to your face is "KARMA!"

Oh boy.

2009-06-12T18:34:00.003+08:00

I was already at the verge of losing my voice when he called me two nights ago. He very kurang ajar yknow,my voice going to hilang already but still all he said was,"Padan muke kau!" :( Sad much? Haha. He irritated me much more than usual and i raised my voice at him. His fault la! Da kasi orang pissed gile babi,happy ah? -_____- He then apologised and said many sorry-s,as usual. Then he sang for me "Baa baa black sheep" Major tsk! I didn't want him to sing so i said "Pls don't ahh you. You nyanyi teros i demam agaknyer!" True enough. Ha-ha. Fira,please shut up. Right now,i wanna strangle you mister.

Sick:(

2009-06-11T16:34:00.002+08:00

Not feeling well. But i'm really happy i got to see your face today. Happy much. :D

Close to heart.

2009-06-10T10:27:00.005+08:00

I had an awesome time with my family plus this boy yesterday. I missed him hell much and i'm so glad i spent time with him yesterday at Vivo. This cute boy's name is Anur Adhli. He's turning three this july (yes,july baby also wheee). I must admit taking care of him was indeed a chore but he's darn cute laaa. Like yesterday when my hands were already full of his toys,going to pay at the cashier,he asked me to carry him. lol i couldn't say no la righttttt. Penat penat penat. But anything for you la Adhli. I can't wait to see you again. On my birthday okay! *wink wink*

P.S: We're okay now. Alhamdulillah. But i kind of miss your face:(

9 June:

Happy 1st Month as idiotic friends!

Your still my ~~imaginary~~ hubby.

Pick your favourite.

2009-06-08T21:42:00.007+08:00

I had the time of my life today. I slept round two am and mummy woke me up at eight plus. Early day today. And to balas dendam,i quickly text him this " Awak awak awak! Cepat bangun!!!" Yes,i woke him up bloody early cuz i had to tell him i have to leave singapore if not later kena scolding. Heh and for waking him up,i kena scolding sia. He said i buang tebiat wake him up sooo early on his off day summore(!!) -____- Cuz i'm going to m'sia! Yeaaayyy. Atleast it's out of singapore. Siap siap then left home and headed to City Square. Shopped shopped shopped. Bought this,bought that. Waaaahhhh gerek(!!) I watched Hannah Montana movie today and omgggggg it's so good that i cried! Okay,not the cry-macam-baby kind of cry but more of the aww-im-so-touched kind of cry. HAHA. Please try to understand my language. Thank you. But i swear i had tonnes and tonnes of fun today i didn't wanna go home siaa. But tak sampai hati la,i miss someone very much here. I didn't text him for like 9 hours? Suffer enough already ehhh tuu! Hehehe. Kak Ecah bought me an advanced birthday present and i swear i love it hella much! It's soooo nice ahh i tell you. Okay,i'm currently waiting for a call from my parrot. I shall end my post for today. Toodles! (K) (Continued) Tonight i was disappointed at you. I was already v tired but i was happy when you said you would call. You irritated me much as always and i felt rather comfortable hearing your usual evil laughs and such. Then there came a time when you made me v angry until i cannot tahan and i yelled at you. Sorry,my bad but it was unintentional. I was already at my breaking point. I got so bloody angry that i just said a flat "bye" and hung up on you. SORRY, I'm sorry the night had to end that way. But you were at fault too:(

drama queen.

2009-06-07T15:35:00.005+08:00

I had to attend a wedding at Tampines yesterday:) The ambience of the wedding was phenomenal. My aunties were like saying that they wanna see me get married in 4,5 years? i'm like "Errrr nooo thank you!" *LAUGHS* Anyway so righttt,after the wedding we headed to Tampines Mall and the new one TampinesOne (kan?) . I finally went to TM and straightaway rushed to "SPLIT" where they were having a sale. Tops at $15! I bought one and my sister also beli jugak. I was in Tampines from 4 till about 9 like that. Kecoh rightttt. Then before we left that area,my lens buat hal causing my eyes to turn red. Initially i thought it was dry so i put some solution,but it didn't work. When i was in the car otw to simpang bedok,my lens fell out but luckily it didn't drop la. By the time i arrived Bedok,my lens dried up already. Then blablabla.

End up i had to throw them away! :( I only used it for like two weeks sia.Wasted gile babi. And thing is,i cried ehhh! Baikkk. I was really sad la. And there were like soooo many mats there,but wtf i didn't care. I cried macam orang hilang anak. HAHA! Seriously laaaaaa,i want my lens back!

That budak kept consoling me and all la but i still i kept being sucha baby. Boohoo. Right now i don't feel like going out cuz i have to wear specs. -_- Someone slept without telling me last night! Waste my time only bathe fast fast so that you can call ehh,parrot. And this morning when i got up,i got (4) unread text messages. All from HIM! His last text read:

"Awaaaaaaaaak! Wake up wake up wake up! Cepat!"

You see? He woke me up at 945 ehhh. So much for wanting to wake up late today,fira. Thank you mirul for waking me up so early. Mentang mentang he got class. Have to wake me up also. *makes angry face* He is currently at work right now but he can still text me,disturbing me as usual. So if you're ever at JP,walking pass McCafe and you see this cute guy with either specs or contact lens,with spiky hair and if he's texting and his name tag reads "Amirul" ,please bantai him for me. Thank you very much. I might head out for a movie with my family later at Shaw. Yeaaaaay(!) I love family movie nights,period. (K)

I miss your face ahh ngok.

You're the target that i might miss.

2009-06-06T13:26:00.003+08:00

Sorry i didn't blog yesterday. Too damn shagged already. I had a longgggg day yesterday. I got up at nine,after hearing mummy's naggings. She was nagging at that boy ahh. Super irritating ten year old. Got up,showered then dressed up. The two kids got ready too, We bussed to JP to meet mummy. Had our lunch at Swensen's and i ate fish n chips. YUMMY! After lunch then i went to buy my Hello Kitty organiser. Whoooo,happy. Then blablabla. Had tea time at McCafe *kening moves up and down* At first he wasn't there but suddenly he popped out. Macam magic gitu,lol. And guess ape? He wore specs yesterday:) Cuz he got sore eyes. Aww boohoo. But,thing is he looked super extra cuter with specs on. To-tal-ly(!!) Talked to him for awhile before i left. OHHHHHHHMYGGGGGG. He called me up before he went to sleep and had our usual long conversations. Irritating nak mampos ahh that parrot. But right,i loved yesterday's conversation the most! (L) I want strawberry ice cream,story,sweets! (inside joke) I miss your voice already la,budak tak suka mint. You owe me two stories! xx

P.S: I want Caramel Frappe now!

Tsk.

More like the boy who makes the caramel frappe(!!)

HAHA.

He respects me space.

2009-06-04T12:46:00.007+08:00

To hurt you,i would never.

Thing is,would we ever end up together?

Whatever happens i hope you'll be happy.

Finding your happiness-it's all that matters,really.

Something happened to me at JP yesterday,when i was taking my siblings out to lunch,resulting in me being in pain cuz some stranger accidentally knocked me over and hurt my toe. Ouch okay. Boo you stranger. I wanted to cry cuz the pain was unbearable but in public siaaa. Malu. I complained much but still the pain was stll there. TSK! When i told ____ about it,he kept asking me wether i was okay or not -___- Of course i said okay la rightt? I wouldn't want him to worry about such small things kan. He called soonafter and i was truly happy he took the initiative to care. Thank you b. But he found out that i was not okay cuz he said my voice sounded different. In the end,i was forced to go sleep:( Ten minutes later i texted him. The text read:

"I can't sleep.

I can't sleep.

Pain.

Pain."

Hahahah macam baby kan? loool i was in pain whutt. Cannot sleep properly sia. Eventually i took paracetamols to ease the pain, It did help though. I'm currently down with sorethroat this morning and ___ already pesan me to eat medicine this morning:) Okay,i'm off to go have lunch and take my meds.

Sleepless night.

2009-06-03T07:40:00.018+08:00

Time check:7.45am

This all happened this morning fyi.

I slept at 1 plus and got up at 3am. Two hours of sleep aje and i'm not sleeepy! Power ahh.

3.07am. Nature calls.As soon as i got back into my room,i checked my fone. Surprise surprise,i got one text message from you:) The weird thing is that you are awake too. We have that special connection that i like. I replied to your text and you insisted that i was being kaypoh cuz i can't sleep also. GRRR. I loved your perangai in the wee hours of morning. Cuz you are extra baik! Kan b? looool i asked you to get back to sleep cuz you're working the morning shift later on but since you can't,you suggested that we play this 'game' whereby we both had to count to 100 and whoever finishes counting first has to text the other party asap and the loser has to buy ice-cream. But noone lost in the end cuz we both texted each other at the same time. Funny laah. Your plan sucks because in the end we both still awake(!!) Hahahaha. Then suddenly out of nowhere you had this craving for hotcakes! Yes,at 4 in the morning. And you asked me wether you should go to pm or not. -.- I said yes then you hurry hurry got ready and changed. But as soon as you left your house,*thunder claps*. Eventually it rained super heavily and more thunder claps plus lots of lightning. Tssskkkk! I was bloody worried bout you being outdoors. But you texted me 5 minutes later saying that you are safely home:) What a huge relief! But i was scared out of my wits due to the thunder and lightning that i almost cried. You laughed at me,saying that i'm acting like a little girl. But you comforted me saying that you're right here by my side and there's nothing for me to be scared about. Awww i swear i like you even more in the morning! We both accompanied each other till you're at work that we both didn't realize that its been three hours since we texted! My my,time really does flies when you're having fun. It's only been 30 minutes since we last texted but i miss you already,idiot.

(^^)

"You're so lovely,sweet like honey"

P.S: Thank you for staying up with me mister!

I cherish you thiiiiiiiisss much for that. Hugs!

(K)

I say:
You irritating uhhhh!
M says:
:( :(
I say:
alaaaaaaaa sorry la syg.
M says:
syg kau ah!
M says:
heee..
M says:
sorry la..
M says:
maen2 jer..
M says:
haha..
I say:
-__- ye ye ye ye.
M says:
sorry!!
M says:
sorry awak.. datz like very rude..
M says:
sorry!!!
I say:
looooool. tau tkper ehhh.
M says:
SORRY!
I say:
lol nvm la awak. i'm fine.
M says:
awak..
M says:
i gtg..
M says:
my sis nk pkai..
M says:
sorry..
M says:
=(
I say:
okay sure.. its okay.
M says:
awak..
M says:
sorry..
M says:
ill txt u ltr syg..
M says:
awak.. sorry..
M says:
txt u ltr..
M says:
bye...
I say:
takperrrrrrrrrrr. bye awak.
M says:
=(
I say:
cheer up!
M says:
awak pn!
I say:
uh huh bye b.
M says:
jgn mara2 k.nanti tak lawa tau.
M says:
bye
M says:
b
M says:
haha.
I say:
BYE!
M says:
bye!
M says:
bye!
M says:
bye!
M says:
bye!
M says:
k bye!
I say:
bye syg.
M says:
my last bye!
(say last bye padahal bukan last ponn ehh.)
M . . . says:
bye!!!
　

Now you know how irritating he can be:) 　　　　　

Seven months.

2009-06-02T18:14:00.010+08:00

Pet society-my new addiction,my new baby. Hahahah! And yes i love going around kissing people i don't know just to get $$ to buy stuffs! (talk abt taking advantage!) LOL. Huhuuu and i also go around cleaning stinky dirty people who don't bathe cuz yes,i do get paid for that! Ahhhhhhhh there's a whole lot of stuffs i wanna buy for Kitty's home and also Kitty but i've yet to raise up the amount of dough needed. I wanna get Kitty that thousand bucks tiara! GRRRRRRR geram ajeeeee. Okay,so now i'm back to kissing/hugging/bathing strangers! I will have a proper update when i'm not gaga-ing over Kitty. Chiow. P.S: Thank you for calling me up two nights ago and spending time with me thru the phone. I know you miss me but you just don't want to admit it but instead you said i missed you. Ape ajeeeee gile. Now,my turn. I miss you,crazy. (Continuation) Today. Somehow i liked you even more today. That doesn't mean that i like you any lesser the rest of the days but today you're extra sweet. I got up at 7am to send Ben off to school with the two girls then we had breakfast at LJS. I texted you saying that i was already up but you're already at work. I took a long nap as soon as i got home while waiting for your text cuz i was indeed freaking tired. I was happy when you asked me nicely to go online and chat with you but as usual,you were very irritating. I like it even when you're super irritating. Hahah you like rightt? I know you like but tak nak admit kannn! Standard. Huhuuu i was surprised when you called me when i was watching my Michael Scofield on teevee! But nvm,you're more important. Chehhhh macam paham aje fira. You sounded very tired but still had the cheek to say you're not because i knew you wanted to talk to me,but too bad la i know you too well already. I eventually forced you to go sleep cuz you have the morning shift tmr. I know you don't like it when i did that. Sorry i didn't let you hear what you wanted to hear. Tmr okay promise! So we eventually put down the phone and i expected you to sleep soundly but ten minutes later i received a text that read "Sorry kite manje sekali okay. Sorry tau awak. Sweetdreams hunney. Gi tido!" Sape tak happy right. Even though the last part i kena scolding,i was still happy. Happy sekali until cannot sleep ehhh! lol TMR will be a long day for you ehh budak. I hope you have fun with your friends at work. Like what you always said to me whenever i go out,

Jangan naughty ehhh!

Yes,i suka.

2009-05-31T19:30:00.005+08:00

Okay i'm in love with Pet Society baby!

Facebook ahhhhhh. I love you. This is what i've been busy with. Wooohooooo.

Meet Kitty,i own her. (^^)

Besides i'm trying to keep my mind off you and the fact that i feel abit neglected today.

Boo,i miss you silly.

I wish you'd understand.

2009-05-29T21:19:00.010+08:00

Current mood: tiredtiredtired. but still waiting for someone's text.

A longgggggg day today. I got up suuper early at 7 and went to the toilet,ate meds then went back to my beauty sleep. Eventually got up at 930.

Showered and got dressed. Early in the morning i threw a tantrum at mummy already. Sorry my:( It's cuz i misplaced my ez-link card and i searched the entire house till my hair messed up already ehh! Binget ajeee. At last,the stupid ez-link wass inside the washing machine(!!) I accidentally dropped it in when i was putting my dirty laundry in. TSSSSSSKKK! Headed to JP and had bfast at KFC. Then bussed to Ben's school for his parent teacher meeting and OMGGGG that school brought back sweet memories! I saw a couple of my primary school teachers and i swear i miss being a young kid. All the innocence and not having to worry abt whether someone who means alot to you is gonna call you or not. Booo.Anyway after that,mrt-ed to Lavender,ICA to pick up my new passport. Upon reaching there i saw a familiar face. It was indeed Fickey's kakak sedare. I saw her,smiled then she texted me. Like finally eh we met! :) After running some errands,we mrt-ed back to Bugis for lunch and did some shopping! Well i got a black dress with this gold zip. At least it made me happy girl. Then headed to Kinokuniya and i got a new Chicken Soup book! YEAAAAAYYYY at last i have something to occupy myself with in case i get bored. At the very least i won't die! (LOL inside joke)

I'm currently superdupertrooper tired but i'm still waiting for someone's text or call. I miss you alot today. Sorry abt yesterday night when i accidentally put down the phone on you. SORRY! No matter what,you'll still be the best okay. *winks*

P.S: School orientation is on the 15th July! One more month baby.

P.S.S: I heard something i didn't want to hear yesterday. Honestly,you never were a friend of mine. So read my lips: I don't give a hoot about you. I won't say anything bad about you cuz if i did,i'd be stooping to your level ahh girl. Sorry,goodbye. Case closed.

What you get when i'm bored.

2009-05-28T13:18:00.006+08:00

The TENs' TEN FACTS

1. Full Name - Afira Fairuza Afandi

2. Nicknames - Fira,ira,arara(only a bunch calls me that!)

3. Birth place - Singapore.

4. Hair color - Brownish Black.

5. Natural hair style - Wavy-ish. I don't like combing my hair much.

6. Eye Color - Dark Brown.

7. Birthday - 05th July 1991.

8. Mood - I have my moments. Currently,i'm pretty contented.

9. Favorite color(s) - Pink,Turquoise,Blue.

10. One place you'd like to visit - Paris :)

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love - Yes,once or twice.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Yup.

3. Do you currently have a crush - Uhmm yes?

4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Yes and i don't wish to go thru that again.

5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - Uhmmmmmmm.

6. Have you ever had your heart broken - Definitely.

7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Ha-ha,nope.

8. Are you afraid of commitment - YES!

9. Who was the last person you hugged - Sister.

10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - Mummy!

TEN THIS OR THAT

1. Love or lust - Love baby.

2. Hard liquor or beer - Hell no to both.

3. Cats or dogs - Hell no to both.

4. A few best friends or any regular friends - A few regular friends.

5. Creamy or Crunchy - Crunchy.

6. Pencil or Pen - Pen,especially coloured ones!

7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic.

8. Money or Happiness - Happiness. Money doesn't guarantee happiness.

9. Night or day - Night.

10. IM or phone - Phone.

TEN ARE YOU.

1.Are you single - Yes,and currently not enjoying it much:(

2. Are you happy - Depends.

3. Are you bored- Uh huh uh huh uh huh yes.

4. Are you fair - Yes.

5. Are you Italian - Nope.

6. Are you intelligent - I believe everybody is intelligent in their own special way:)

7. Are you honest - Heaven yes!

8. Are you nice - Hahaha i have been told that i'm nice. So uhmm yes?

9. Are you Irish - Nope.

10. Are you Asian - Yeaaaahhh baby.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out - NOOOOO. I'm too good like that yo.

2. Seen a polar bear - ^_^ yesssssss.

3. Done something you regret - Several times.

4. Bungee jumped - Omggggg nooo.

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - Ewww grosss no.

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - No.

7. Been caught naked - HAHA! Uhmmmmmm.

8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Flat out NO.

9. Cried because you lost a pet - NO.

10. Wanted to disappear - Yes,whenever i'm around this human being.

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

1. Smile or eyes - Eyes.

2. Light or dark hair - Dark hair.

3. Hugs or kisses - More kisses can? loool

4. Shorter or taller - Taller.

5. Intelligence or attraction - Attraction.

6. Topman or Zara - Zara.

7. Funny or serious - ____ is funny.

8. Older or Younger - Neither. Same age.

9. Outgoing or quiet - Outgoing.

10. Sweet or Bad - Sweet.

TEN HAVE YOUS

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Yes,when i was in primary 5,6- dance routine.

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - Yes- three hours or so to be exact:)

3. Ever tried walking on your hands - Uhmm no.

4. Ever been to a rock concert - I'd love to someday.

5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - Noooo,though my girls insisted me to join em.

6. Ever been on a dance team - Hahahha i wanna!

7. Ever been on a sports team - Naaaaaahhh*yawns*

8. Ever been in a drama play/production - Oh yes i have.

9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - Escalade please.

10. Ever been in a rap video? - Wthhhh NO.

TEN LASTS

1. Last person who called - Irritating.

2. Last person you hugged - Ben.

3. Last person you hung out with - Leeya.

4. Last time you worked - Never before.

5. Last person you talked to - Mummy.

6. Last person you IM'd - Ykid.

7. Last person you texted - Sue.

8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Family.

9. Last person/thing you missed - I miss my girlfriends,teachers and _____.

10.Last website visited - blogger.

Am i chasing rainbows here?

2009-05-28T12:25:00.009+08:00

Yes,i know i have to understand and be patient when it comes to this topic -YOU. Without a doubt,patience is definitely not one of my virtues. But i have to stay patient. One of the things i don't enjoy doing is waiting but for you,i'm constantly waiting-either for your text or call. Eventually it really does pay off...I think. No doubt you left me in the lurch yesterday..Again. I shouldn't scold you cuz i felt i had no right to scold you for not having time for me. I miss you,irritating. soooooooooooo much:(

Thank you to YY for saving me yesterday night! You listened to what i had to say with open arms and i appreciate you for being sucha dear last nightttttt. A piece of my heart goes out to you,soon-to-be bestfriend.

Okay,i'm off to do some stuffs while waiting for Irritating's text or call.

And yes hopefully i will be meeting my girlfriend sooon. i miss you sooo much erny:(

"Love will show you everything"

:)

2009-05-27T09:43:00.006+08:00

I was searching for HK wallpapers when i came across this. This is somewhat how my cellphone looks like,front part's a teeny bit diff though. Cute much? lol i swear the price is worth it laaaa. I told you before,i'm a HK addict. Hehehehe! There's still tonnes of HK things i wanna buy. Gaaaaah~

Mister Irritating.

2009-05-27T09:00:00.006+08:00

Like finally,after searching one hour plus for a decent blogskin,i settled for this one:) I like this skin. looool random. I have to thank you for calling me up yesterday. I'm glad you understood and realized you've been super busy and you took the initiative and time to layan me and such. I was indeed very happy to hear your voice after not hearing it for two days,lol. Though you irritate me 98 percent of the time,i know deep down inside you care. I can never thank you enough for always cheering me up and telling me to behave when i'm being bitchy.That's what i like most abt you. Okay,so yesterday there was this funny part when i said something to him and he laughed. -____- TSK!

Fira: Ahh kay fine. byyyyye ahh.(sounded like baya)

Irritating: Baya? Awak fikir kite bangla pe?

Fira: Okay sorry. BYE UHHHH. ( i really said uhh,clearly)

Irritating: *laughs* Cakap lagi pleeease.

Fira:TAK NAK LAH.

Irritating: Alaaa please la awak.

(Honestly i hate it when he say please,susah nak resist!)

Fira: BYE UHHHH.

Irritating: *laughs even more*

Hahah lool irritating but it's his irritatingness that makes him stand out from the rest? lol macam paham. I loved you for yesterday night! Yesterday night aje ehhhh. Then yesterday we were both talking about how much we both argue in a day and how many sorry's he had to say to me for making me angry.

Irritating: Awak,awak rase satu hari brape kali kite ckp sorry?

Fira: Uhmmm 20?

Irritating: Salah.. More than that!

Fira: Da tau more than that abeh suke kasi kite marah?

Irritating: Suke la. Haha.

Fira: -__-

Right after he said that,he made me angry again then apologised. He said sorry for what felt like a hundred times,it was like he was singing a song. He kept saying sorry cuz i kept quiet. LOL. Angry apeeeee. But in the end,i forgave him laaah. He said his hobby is to irritate me cuz _________. FIll in the blanks yourself! HAHA. Time check: 9.18am. I got up at 7 and replied Irritating's text. He's got his NS check-up today and i really wish him the best of luck:) I didn't sleep well last night cuz i was worried abt this. tskkk. After getting off the phone with him last night,i texted Ykid and Sue. Thank you for accompanying me ehhh! Irritating,call me later okay.

Sue baby,i hope you'll stay strong okay. I love you sweetypie.

Putting my guard down.

2009-05-26T14:11:00.009+08:00

Yesterday was indeed your fault. I was very disappointed but i'm very good at hiding my emotions. Sometimes i don't get you. But most of the time i keep telling myself you're stressed with work,that's why i tried my very best to understand your predicament. But now,i'm clueless. Like okay,yesterday for the first time in a very longggg time i remembered what it felt like to cry. Call me a crybaby or whatever but i'm really ____. I'm sick and tired of waiting for your text or call but i can't let go. I just can't. I know you always say sorry but i really wish it was enough. For once,i wanna be contented:)

Partner in crime.

2009-05-25T16:50:00.005+08:00

Seriously from the bottom of my heart,I'm sorry. I'm sorry i am so moody these days that the slightest thing can trigger me and i'll always end up scolding you. Geez,i sound so bad i know. Sorry b(pls dont anyhow guess this word):( Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. Please call me later okay. I miss you.

It'll be rockin'

2009-05-24T14:46:00.011+08:00

Emotionator: Happpppyyy sekali. So yesterday night,mummy,the girls plus Ben and i went to JP. Shopped for abit then had my Caramel Frappe somewhere there. Then suddenly,GUGUGAGAGUGUGAGA. I was almost speechless ehhh! Haha. But i'm really super happy i got to see _____ yesterday. I missed that boy alotttttt ahhhhh. HAHA. Yesterday i very paiseh because of something but i promise today i will not repeat it again:) Okay besssst. This is a random post. Sorry. Have a lazy Sunday ya'll. P.S: Yesterday night was the sex! Girl talk session with mummy and K-Acha bout boys and breakups and such. OMG funnnn shit bowdow. Seriously we laughed our asses off! Never thought we'd all have such similar Xperiences altogether! Tssssssskkkk. P.S.S: I have changed my email add due to some reasons. I've already deleted the old one. Add me up at my new one instead. See ya'll there!

Baby just say yes.

2009-05-23T15:10:00.006+08:00

Summarising my Saturday so far:

Got up early at 9.
Bussed with K-Acha and sister to mum's workplace.
Some young mats disturbed us. Tak perlu eh little boys.
Breakfast-ing.
Market-ing. (Triple Ewwwwwww)
Went home.
Heading to JP later with mummy,ben10 and K-Acha.
I want to see _____ badly.

Yesternight,i had a girl to girl heart talk with K-Acha till round 2 plus. I honestly felt waaayyyy better.I love having her as my aunt,this i swear. I seriously,honestly,truthfully,wholeheartedly love you deep deep,K-Acha!

_______,what's left to say except sorry? Sorry b :( Sorry you have to entertain my shiznits even though you're tired with work and such. I promise i'll make it up to you. And no,you're not evil. NOTNOTNOTNOT. I promise i'll behave. I miss your voice.

2009-05-22T13:49:00.005+08:00

$240

$50

$40 $3,600

$995

$160

And those are the list of stuffs i want for my upcoming birthday. Ha-ha still a longggg way to go. About 45 more days? Mind you,thats just my guesstimation. Okay,i'm gg off now. Chiow.

Pissed.

2009-05-22T13:20:00.008+08:00

I have a bunch of new photos i snapped yesterday but i can't upload them into my computer. Ysee,yest right my sister borrowed my memory card to school for her project. And when i took those pics,it was stored in my phone not my memory card. Then HOW ehh?I swear i don't know. I very headache already sia now. Time check: It's 1.22pm and i still haven't had anything to eat yet. If _____ finds out,i will sure kena scolding. Thing is,i'm not hungry. How to eat when your not hungry at all? Geeez. He hasn't texted me since yesterday night so he must be busy working. Yesternight,he irritated me also(as always!) but i irritated him a WHOLE LOT MOREEEEE till he got tired. && he says i'm superrrrr blur. Tsk. Sorrrrrrrrryyyyyy. ______,i'm very sorry i perangai okay. I know you're not mad but i felt terrible. SORRY SORRY SORRY! ♥♥♥ (K) P.S: I woke up to a surprisingly sweet text from my scandal that read,

Arara with a rainbow,just tellin you that i miss you!

Sue baby,i miss you like how i missed you last week! (WTFFF!) I swear i'm gonna squeeze you when we meet. xx

Fireworks in my heart.

2009-05-21T12:10:00.007+08:00

Emotionator: Exuberant I loved yesterday night,i swear. Sleeping at the wee hours of morning is definitely worth it,cos of YOU. Even though it's your hobby to irritate me half of the day and i always end up angry,i like it whenever you say "Sorry". I like it when you pretend to get all petty and expect me to pujok you.So ke ai okay! loooooooool. I guess what i'm trying to say is,i love it when you call. xx P.S: New blog song up. I fvcking love this song hella mucchhhhhhhhh!

Nobody but YOU.

2009-05-20T12:24:00.006+08:00

Say Cheeeeeeese.

And there you go,those are the only pics i took at Pasir Ris last Saturday. Don't remind me. Ha-ha. Okay,so i have to admit that my teenage instincts have been overpowering me these days and hence i will give attitude to everyone who's surrounding me, Tsk! I'm the sorriest kay to all. Esp to Mummy! The only one who can layan my perangai/nonsense,other than ____. A big thank you to mummy for teman-ing me to JP for lunch yesterday cos i had a sudden craving for Burger King. Wheeeee,mummy is the best. Then bussed to PM and bought essentials. At night,my sayang gegerl came and slept over at my crib. She said she wanna sleep at my crib forever! YEAAAAAAAAYYYYY. I didn't get much sleep last night cos i was worried about a certain someone and also due to the fact that i have fking stomach cramps. Yes,it's THAT time of the month again. Baikkkkk. I'm off to have my lunch and wait for someone's text:D! Have a blissful Wednesday all. xx

P.S: _____ , i hope you are okay. ♥

Sorry.

2009-05-18T18:13:00.008+08:00

Currently blasting in my headphones: My blog song. Sedapppppp. :) The picture above was taken last Saturday at Pasir Ris.This cheeky boy above is my nephew,Shaqil. I swear one day when i get married i wanna move to Pasir Ris! I love that area. Esp E-hub! Gerekxzxz. Okay,i admit i've been feeling rather moody or perangai these days and i can honestly blame PMS. It's THAT time of the month again. Holy shit. So,try and understand okay people. I also wanna apologise to someone dear to me if i have been super irritating. SORRYSORRY. There isn't really much to update these days so i'm sorry if i sound so duhhhhhh~ Sometime later this week kak ecah will be sleeping over my crib. I'M EGGSCITED FOR THAT! Thank you to mister yy for making me feel better yesterday after texting! :) Alright,i'm off for my evening shower nowwww. Goodnight.

P.S: Tags replied here! xx

Azyan: thank you babe:D!

Nurulatira: Terima kasih sayang. i'm okay,really. anyway,i miss you jambu!

Huda: Great babe! :) see you soon sweets.

I blocked you.

2009-05-17T13:02:00.003+08:00

First and foremost,i have to say a big sorry to everyone yesterday due to me being very perangai. SORRY :( Because of that,i didn't even enjoy my much anticipated Pasir Ris bbq. I was really disappointed at myself. But i knew alot of people had fun yesterday. I just wished i was myself yesterday.

Reality is here and it's very clear.

2009-05-16T10:52:00.008+08:00

Don't bother asking. Maybe it's just me. And to think today was suppose to be a happy day. Pasir Ris,here i come.

What it feels like.

2009-05-15T12:46:00.003+08:00

"You are a dream so beautiful, its hard to describe. I wish to never wake up from it."

I will be meeting two of my Pinkslip girls at 230 later.
Will be helping Nad design a logo and such.
Yesterday i met McCutie - grabbed my Caramel Frappe from him,talked abit,smiled,left,breathe.
I pity him cos he worked from 10am till 5pm,then he had class from 7-10pm. Today,repeat. Tssssssskkk.
Sue and I are the luckiest girls on the face of this Earth.
I wanna eat now.
Then siap.
Then leave home.
I'm being super random. OK BYEEEEEEEE.

Shake the glitter off your clothes.

2009-05-14T12:40:00.006+08:00

Emotionator: Sleeeepy -__-# Listening to: " Hook up"-Katy Perry

I slept pretty late last night-around 4-ish am and i'm very sleepy now. ____ worked till closing so i accompanied him through the phone la since he was all alone since 11pm. Boohoo. Sadddd kannn. Talked about alot of stuffs and at some point of time very kekek cos he paiseh already. Hahhaha sorry la too funny to tell,looool. He's currently working right now and says he'll text me during his break:) I seriously have no plans today so today might just be a day at home with the two kids and Mummy. Papa's out on a lunch meeting. Saturday's coming in like two days' time and still i haven't got a present for my sayang girl. TSKKKKKKK! Later maybe. Since i'm very mendak righttt now,i shall leave blogger with something random i wrote yesternight. Have a good day fellow readers. xx

Like the feeling you get when you're a kid and you get your very first barbie doll.

Otherwise confused with lust.

Virtued when your partner's the right one for you.

Exuberant,merriment,melodramatic-the king of mixed emotions you get when you're head over heels for that special one.

Give it a thought or two.

Don't need to look no further.

2009-05-13T18:03:00.016+08:00

Most people misinterpret us for 14-year old twins. WTFFFFFF. Today started off pretty early.I woke up at eleven-ish? Quickly showered and siappppp,while waiting for Mummy to come back home from work. I'm supposed to go shopping with her today,you see:) Mummy reached home around 12. She fast fast siap then we bussed to Mr Teh Tarik and had lunch. From there,i bought my essentials-contacts,perfumes,hair colour and some nonsense also. We went to JP to look for Kak A-cha's birthday present but,to no avail. It's not easy looking for HK stuff okay! He's currently working right now:( I have to wait till 2am for him to reach me lorr. Before he went to work,he asked me this "Complete the sentence: You want me to be your _____?" I said," I just want you to be my favourite boy." HAHAHA sweeeet rightttt. loooooool honestly i'm taking things one step at a time. I've learnt my lesson with my past r'ships. But just for the record and so as to clear any doubts,there's no denying that we're attracted to each other. He may be peevish but i also love disturbing him. Oh,the way you make me feel.

Since i'm veryyyy bored right now,i suddenly thought bout the names/kind of names people refer me as. So here's the list of people and how they address me by.

Sue calls me Fira,baby,babe
Atira calls me Fira,syg,darling.
Radin calls me Fira,babe,darling.
Nad calls me Fyra,syg,lalink(darling for you slow people,lloool)
Farah calls me Fyra,babe.
Maira calls me Fyra,syg.
Leesa calls me Baby.
Isya calls me dear.
Mud calls me Ara,babe.
Zoo calls me Ara,arara,bella.
Faizal calls me Fira,bebeh,fai.
Mustafa calls me Fira,arara,fairuza(last one tu tak perlu ehh babe)
Ykid calls me Fira,miss kinky (dont askkkkkkk! secretttt:)
Ben(my own brother) calls me Arara:)
_____ calls me Fira,cik bedah,kaypoh girl (-.- he mintak kene smack ahh tu budak)

Hahah okay dahh. That's what you get when i'm bored. _____ says i'm like minah! WTFFFFFF ahaha he irritating like matrep ahhh!

Boy,i ain't lying

2009-05-12T19:46:00.007+08:00

The picture above is my notebook. I designed it especially for myself because i love myself. looooool okay that's me being freaky. HAHA. Today was rather something. I got up round 1230 (someone can still call this early ehhh!),showered then i called up my two sayangs for a meet up. i just needed someone to talk to,preferably a girl. Sorry guys,i know i have more guyfriends than girlfriends but this time it calls for a girl to girl talk. Talking to Isya was rather fun. I felt a whole lot better after talking abt it. Thanks Isya! Met up with Nad and her two friends at Frontier but they were busily doing their project. Isya and I decided to walk walk around JP instead. Nad,i know your very sorry but honestly your apology tak perlu okay sayang. I'm not even mad at you. I love you babe:D

Putting that aside,this girl made me smile with her sweet words.

"Babe,you're nine point ninenineninenine. That makes you almost perfect. I'm sure he'll fall head over heels for you."- Sue

Baby,i love you hella much. I miss you even mooooooooooooore. Hugs! xx

Right now,at this very instant i'm fucking pissed at a certain human being. What you said seriously tak perlu siaaa. Tak suke,say right to my face ahhh. I don't even give a flying fuck anyway. Who are you to go dessiminating to people that i'm a bitch? Ehh babi la,don't say that word when you don't even know the meaning. CB.Honestly,i regret having someone like you in my life. I am veryyyy pissed right now ehhh. Please don't disturb.

P.S: I knocked my leg onto smtg two days ago and now my leg got blue-black sia. Painnnnn. Note to self: Be careful.

P.S.S : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GORGEOUS TWIN!

You made me strong.

2009-05-11T14:56:00.005+08:00

Can this all be just a passing thing or issit real? It feels so surreal that you're here with me,hypothetically of course. It feels great to know that you're aware of my existence.Atleast you know i'm alive and breathing. But it's been only two days you know girl. Slowly la okayyyy. Man man lai:) The feeling that i'm getting whenever my cellphone screen reads "Your name" makes me feel like i'm the happiest girl on the planet! Could this all last? I certainly hope yes. Dear God,please give me a sign and give me enough courage to face all these obstacles. RIGHT NOW,i'm really super duper gembira. Thanks to you,McDreamy :)

I miss who i really was.

2009-05-10T15:49:00.006+08:00

Yesterday was another meet up with Aunty and the two little boys! This time with Kak Idah:) Main intention was to makan at Seoul Garden but manyy people la oii and our stomach were already grumbling! So we eventually ate at Banquet and bought tix to catch a movie,"Jangan Tegur". My very first time watching a horror flick with those monkeys. The movie was okay. Some part i did jumped up from my seat ehhh! Baikkkkk. And thanks a bunch to those two makciks sitting behind me who spoiled some parts of the movie. Da tengok tu tak perlu kecohhh ehhh! BOO YOUUUU. Ha-ha. We split with Aunty from there and we mrt-ed home. I'm a super duper happy girl right nowwwwwww. Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there! P.S: Mummy i hope you love the card and earrings me and Leeya bought you. I love you VERRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYY MUCCCCCCCCHH!

Your system overloads again.

2009-05-09T12:18:00.010+08:00

I THINK I'M IN LOVE..... with Christopher Lee! Yes. Fann Wong's Christopher Lee. I watched "The Wedding Game" on dvd with Leah last night and OMFFFGGGGGGGG i love his face,i love his kinkyness and all but most importantly i love his friggin hot bodyyyyyyy! Whoooooooo~ I'm going hyper already. ~~Today might be a big day afterall.If we're fated to meet we will. Have faith,Fira. Insya'Allah.~~ Today might not happen afterall:(:(:(:( I'm unimaginably sad right now.

Oh just in case i don't have time to blog tmr,i wanna wish all mothers out there a VERY HAPPY MOTHER' S DAY! Here's something i wrote specially for my beautiful mummy-the person who's been with me through thick and thin.

Mummy-my mum,my hero,my bestfriend.

you're the greatest person in my world,without a doubt.

without you, i wouldn't even exist today.

you brought me into this world,with great pain.

your face was the first i recognized upon reaching this world.

you gave me love,you gave me hope.

most imptly you gave me life.

without you,i wouldn't be where i am today.

for all the hardship and pain you had to go through to bring me into this world,

for all the sacrifices you made to raise your children,

for all the tears i made you cry with my problems that soon became yours too,

for all the hurt that i caused you when i raised my voice at you sometimes,

for all the girltalks we had whenever we go out on "dates",those moments were irreplaceable.

for all the love you showered me with since July 1991,the love i can never put in words.

Sincerely from the bottom of my heart,I love you Mummy.

HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY

xoxo

New.

2009-05-08T20:05:00.004+08:00

all black

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Okay so here i am back on blogger. I figured i might reach out to all you readers better here. This few months have been pretty okay. Nothing interesting. No new boyfriend,no new nothing. HAHAHA okay wait. I did make a new friend. Mister Ykid:)! We vowed to be bestfriends when school start. Kankankan? Huhu^^ See how laa. Skali see mat saleh girl already he forgot me. LOL kidding ajee. He's been making me smile everyday. Never fails to make me laugh one. Thankss ehh misterr. A big piece of my heart goes out to you:) Anyways,ive been designing notebooks for my sister's friends to make some $$ before school.So far i've made about 6 of these notebooks . Do tag here if any of you are interested in making orders! But mind you,it's gonna take sometime for me to design them cause i do them all manually. Each design is unique and if you have any requests for me to design on your notebook,i will personalise them for you. Each notebook is $5 but each design varies so i'll have to charge accordingly. So tagggggggg if you're interested:)!

Famous last words.

2009-05-03T17:21:00.004+08:00

Dear readers,I will not be back here but i'll still reply tags ,so flood my tagboard! Maybe i will be setting up a new public blog. Maybe. Depends on the number of readers i have :) So if you are a dedicated reader of this blog,tag the board pls. I need to know how the demand is like before i decide to make a new page. Thanks. Alright takecare all you sweet people. Love, Arara ecka.

Take note

2009-04-16T10:30:00.002+08:00

Since i'm not coming back here,ya'll can find me on wordpress in the mean time-for those few close ones who know my wordpress site . Ask me for it in msn. Thanks.

End.

2009-04-15T12:56:00.004+08:00

Blogger isn't fun anymore. I'm ditching blogger,for something better. I will be MIA for some time. Find me kay? Cos i seriously am done with blogger.I'm not coming back,ever. Goodbye. With Love, Arara ecka.

If Everything Is Going Your Way, Expect Shitstorms.

2009-04-10T12:47:00.003+08:00

I miss camwhore-ing.

I was just browsing through this webpage when i came across this quote,"You can't rely on other people to make you happy". I guess that's true,in some ways or so. It depends on each individual to make oneself happy. Cos right now,i'm sick of bottling my feelings up. I'm sick and tired of pretending i'm fine when i'm actually not. I'm sick of making everybody else happy when i feel like shit inside. This intense feeling i'm experiencing inside me is stoking with every passing day.I'm really at my wits' end. I feel like everything i do is gonna impinge on everyone. Like,it's gonna affect everybody. It's as if every little move i make,i'm being watched over from a giant magnifying glass. When can i stop all this ? When can i put myself above others {for once} and be happy. Like,really really happy? Now,i feel like i'm suffocating. My windpipes are rapidly closing. There isn't enough air for me to breathe in anymore. I feel like i'm dying gradually,hypothetically. Crying isnt healthy at all. I know. But i figured that it does help the process alil. It's the only way i'm able to express myself. Cos now,nobody understands me. You may think you're well-informed about me but face up to reality,YOU JUST DONT. Don't even try. Cos you'll end up disappointed. All this while ive been faking a smiling facade cos i didn't want to worry anyone especially mummy but i really can't take it anymore. It is time to distinguish the fact from fiction. The truth shall set you free,girl. I really need a break. A long one. I will be back. Soon.

Sudden moodswings.

2009-04-09T13:50:00.005+08:00

My dardardarlingling.

I like this picture above. Just looking at it gives me a sense of feeling at peace of mind and heart. I have to admit that i've not been at peace at all these days. Instead,i've been rather moody.That also explains why i haven't been updating this site for days. I am the only one who knows why but i'm still not ready to give an explanation to anybody. I'd just like to keep this between me,myself and i. My privacy,please. Putting that all aside,i had superduper fun with my girls and their bfs yesterday. I wasn't really feeling 100% hyper though. Let's just say it wasn't one of my best days. But still,i had to fake my smiles and laughter for their sake :) We caught a movie,"Coming Soon". My first ever horror movie this year. I love to watch horror movies but let's just put it that me and horror movies aren't sucha good combo kay. Now,laugh. HAHA. Before i forget,i would like to post a BIG shout-out to my darling,Radin Siti Nurafiqah,wishing her a blissful 16th birthday! I hope everything turns out great for you and thanks for always being there when i needa shoulder to cry on. You're my happy pill,really. I love you babe:D On another note,this boy ive known since 2007 is seriously pissin' me. We've known each other for 2 years and you're seriously asking me wether i know you?!! WTF. Yeh,that's really mature. Cmon,get a life ,dirtbag.That ends my post for today. Bye.

2 o clock.

2009-04-05T13:57:00.006+08:00

Today i got up pretty early,at 10am.Showered,got dressed in a jiffy and went to the market with mom when it started raining. I didnt even manage to comb my hair and it looked horrific,i swear. On the way back,bumped into Wank,Bulu,An,Burn,Alep. Baek ah. Myhair already like what sia. They salam-ed mom and Burn looked so happy cos mom remembered him,lol. Happy eh jack. I havent seen them since last year??? lame sia. Haha kinda miss them la. Dear rain,please stop raining. That was random. I'm prolly gonna fix my own lunch now. I'm thinking,black pepper beef udon? Yeah! Okay,takecare and have a wet sunday readers. lol that sounded wrong. I mean,have a nice cold sunday!

So perhaps you and i are wrong?

We are not one,but two.

we do not love,we lust.

it will not lasy,i'll lose-

"i know",your eyes sing to me,

"that i love you".

i am silent.

and i stare into your hand

that rests on my wrist ever so gently-

it almost reminds me of your hugs.

i know i love you too.

-Rachel Weiner.

Topsy-turvy.

2009-04-03T17:25:00.005+08:00

The reason for the change of blogskin is because this miang gerl was browsing thru her blogger page when she accidentally deleted all her blog things. Power kan. Due to that,i lost most of my links:( Binget gile babi siaaaaaaa~ So please drop your links if your here alrighttt.Thanks! I shall blog a proper post whenever i feel like it. Okay,that sounded real bitchy. I meant to say,i will post a longer post if there's anything interesting in my life:) Chiow~Oh and for the record,Mister HP stands for handphone,NOT Hazwan power eh. Hahaha silly gila boy. lol i miss you okay. Bye. I feel like having my hot chocolate drink now. BYEEEE~

I’m trying to figure out what you are.

2009-04-02T12:26:00.005+08:00

I'm back,for a short while. I have a couple of thank you-s and sorry-s to post. First up,a BIG sorry to mister H for not being able to find my previous blogskin that you liked:( Sorry. I really did try my best though. Sorry to Sue for texting you three nights ago and left you in the lurch w/o a valid reason.I miss you baby. Okay,the sorry part is done. Thank you to Farah and Danny for the shout-out at your blog:) So sweeeeettt!Appreciate it banyak-banyak eh. Saya miss korang-korang all. And yes,we'll meet up soon-ish? Okay setttttttt. Thank you to Mustafa for 'fooling' me yesterday though i dint really got fooled. Hahah,you fool. Okay,that's all i have to blog about today. I'll be out and about today. Whee~Takecare and God bless:D

Brand new thing.

2009-04-01T18:43:00.004+08:00

New cellphone.New month. New attitude. New perception of life. Hopefully,things will get better soon. Insya'Allah.I'm happy things are okay between us now.Alhamdulillah. I will be back,soon. Count on it.

Untitled.

2009-03-31T16:05:00.004+08:00

"If i start to cry today,i'll just let the tears come.It is okay to cry,even if i don't know why."-Anonymous I seriously don't know whats going on in this brain of mine. It feels as it the whole world's burden is on my shoulders.I feel like i'm falling apart,very fast. My head feels like exploding. I wear my heart on my sleeve so going out is a big no-no during this crucial time but staying at home makes me feel even sddfgreyeuwh.So even if i go out,i'll look like *OMG* I don't wanna see anyone,talk to anyone or have anything to do with anyone right at this instant. Sorry to all. Really,i am sincerely sorry. I myself don't know what's wrong with me so dont bother asking cos the answer is and will be the same,"I dont know". I thought i was okay yesterday but i was wrong. Very wrong. Sorry to Mister Shuaige for making you worried and all with my shiznits,trust me i'll be okay,soon enough. I will text you when i feel better and not so sucky. Sorry to Alfa for the short phonecall yesterday night. Sorry sorry sorry. I will be back in a couple of days. I just need time to pick myself up together. Takecare all.

Something to cheer me up.

2009-03-30T17:37:00.006+08:00

I got just what i needed today. My girlfriends to perk me up :D! Left home round 2 and bussed to JP. I was a teeny bit late. I have the bloody late bus to blame. Sheesh. Met up with Suzie then left for Banquet. {Suzie,i hope you like the present i gave you!}Chatted and ate with Suzie then headed to Isya's workplace then we walk walk to survey survey for Isya's fone.Then they two ah,keep kacau-ing me sia.Suzie claims that LG stands for Lousy Gadget. WTH.My fone is LG okay. I like mrajok already sia. Hahahah then ah Isya like this onefone then she asked me to ask the promoter for the price then i was like,"Ah ape? LG lousy gadget pe." Hahahah. But ah,i have to admit jugak ah,LG fone memang sucks.Sumpah.Mintak kene buang siak.Putting everything aside,i had fun today. Tonnes of it:) Thanks Suzie,Isya. Sayang you both! Kisskiss:):):)

:(dont even ask

2009-03-29T21:12:00.003+08:00

Today was such a &#^%@!)!! day. I dont think it's just me being gile babi punye prangai okay. Got up at 9oclock and showered at aroung 10plus. So semangat already sia. Why? Cos i die die wanted to meet Fahrenheit(again) at IMM. Left home at 11 and arrived IMM at twelve. Was happy cos there werent many people. Then somebody prangai,last minute sia. I got fucked up then decided to head home instead ah. No Fahrenheit today:( But nvm i wasnt really into it anyway. MRT-ed to JP and i bought some stuffs. Headed home after that looking like -___-#. I guess i brought all this upon myself. I have nobody else to blame except myself. ME ME ME. Selfish me. Ugh,okay bye. I shall post a proper post when im not in sucha bitchy attitude. Goodnight.

Unexplainable #^#%!&!@#$ feeling.

2009-03-28T21:19:00.007+08:00

This was how i felt at 245am yesterday,well today actually. I just cant get myself to sleep. I'm in deep thoughts.Thing is,this something has been bothering me all week. Just the thought of it makes me shiver. It's been 125days since it happened and it's safe to say i'm 99 percent over YOU. The other 1 percent still needs a little bit of time. I need time to adjust. Things will never change and i'm happy we're still acquaintances :) But the main thing now is,when can i upgrade myself? When will i be ready to start afresh with another? Whatever happened to the Fira who deemed unimaginable to live without someone to call a boyfriend? I guess it's true what Mustafa said when i told him i wanted to remain single. He said,"You sure anot? This isn't the Fira i know." I guess it's true. Ive changed in many ways i can't explain myself. It's not my fault. This is nature. I feel ive maturised more now. I am more mature now. I'm happy..i think. I miss every single tiny thing about having aboyfriend but still i'm not ready for a new relationship with anyone just yet. Also,i'm proving all those people wrong when they say i'm incapable of being independent cos i AM more independent than i've ever been.Why am i afraid of commitments now?125days and i'm still not ready. When will i ever be? The clock's ticking every single second and who knows? I might not have sufficient time left in this world. Why can't i commit myself to someone like i used to? What am i really afraid of? What's holding me back? I can't even answer my own questions,let alone anyone. Sometimes i even wonder,will i ever get hitched in the long run? Will i give my heart,body and soul forever to someone willingly,till death do us part? I haven't got a clue. I miss that "on top of the world"kinda feeling when your with someone whom you love. I guess i've never really been that in love before. All those past relationships must've been puppy love cos if it was true love,we'd never be apart.I treasure each and every past relationship i had majority ended pretty well,i must say. Still great friends after every obstacle cos both parties know there's plenty of fishes in the sea. Sometimes when i think back and reminisce bout my past relationships,i learn to laugh to myself thinking abt those silly times i had-from sweaty palms to bus rides home and i smile,knowing that they'll always be in my heart and in my prayers everyday. How do you know for sure your in love?What? Do you just know? what if,i don't know i'm in love? You can't sleep,thinking all night about his/her pretty/handsome face?Whenever you eat,you don't feel full?Absence makes the heart grow fonder? Honestly,i think all that's total bull. I don't really believe the "love at first sight" thing,more like "lust at first sight" okay! You see someone bloody hot and your heart melts like ice on a hot pan and right in that instant,you wanna go up to him/her and snog that person. Now then i realise i've never really been in love and i still think i'm too young to be in love. Maybe time will tell.My mind's in a turmoil right now. I'm not emo-ing,just expressing. I'm just really angry,sad at myself at the moment.My head's in a cotton candy mess now. P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E is the key,like i always said. Please leave me alone for the time being. I need time to think. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

THANKYOU<3

2009-03-28T21:08:00.006+08:00

This is a thankyou note for all who've been behind me since day one,thankyou for your support,love and encouragement. I wouldn't be where i am today if it weren't for any of you. THANK YOU SO MUCH! I love each and every one of you,without a single doubt.Oh and i shall reply your tags here:) Thanks for those who tagged. Syirahfaive:I shall link you asap,comel. Hahah,where got hawt,you then hawt la:)Thanks!

ArinaPETOM: Xiexie babe:D! Sherrynaah:Thanks thanks! Will do:) Atira: Wheee,terima kasih jambu:) Appreciate it banyak-banyak. PETERidhwanZ:Hahah,thank you eh. You also,Shatec seh budak tuu. Syaqq: HAAH! Yesss,yaynessss.Thank you prettaye. Nothing is better than pink babe!:D Baky: Yes bby. Thanks ayye.

What's right in front.

2009-03-26T20:10:00.004+08:00

First and foremost,i have to congratulate myself for getting my ass to NAFA :) Alhamdulillah. All my efforts have finally paid off. I've already promised myself and mummy that i will do whatever it takes left in me to do well and make her proud. Im really so contented. When Aunty broke the news to me in front of mister shuaige yesterday,i almost wept! Tsk. HAPPY BABE! Thanks to a big bunch of people who've been cheering me on and praying for me. I can't possibly list them all here but i'll just name out afew. A big THANKYOU to Hazwan,Mud,Mars,Sue,Atira,Eyya,Farah,Nad,Maira,Aisyah. Sorry if i didnt mention you,but just know that each and every one of ya'll are in my prayers everyday. I will never forget my friends,i swear. I love each and every one of you many many! Today was another great day. Lunched with mummy at Delifrance and i ate Mushroom spaghetti with chicken chipolata. YUMMY TO THE MAX! >< Then walk walk around JP and i bought an organiser for myself for $22. Quite a bargain right? And the colour,tak payah tanye la hor. Guess it yourself. If you really dont know then it's safe to say you dont really know me. Eh Syaq? HAHAHA(!) I can't wait for school. 3 more bloody months to go! Patience fira. TMR i hafta go NAFA with mummy to collect the letter and the registration stuffs.Okay,im off to have my dinner now.Chiow. Selamat Malam.

Awesome.

2009-03-25T22:35:00.005+08:00

A really short post for today. I just wanna say i had fun fun fun today. I know you did too,lol. Also ya'll should totally check out Confessions of a shopaholic. It's a killer funny one:) I came across the peekture above at Nadeya's profile and omggggay i look so different sia. -___- HAH! I miss art lessons in school. While the others are busy chiong-ing for art,we slack and gossip gossip only. HAAH! lol. Great times. Today was sucha fantastic day. A piece of good news really made me a happy girl :) Alhamdulillah. My prayers are answered,finally. Okay,i hafta hit the sheets now. I'm waaay too tired now. Goodnight and sweetdreams,living things:D

They tell you i'm difficult,but so are they.

2009-03-24T18:14:00.006+08:00

Today was fun. Though i dint really talk most of the time. Gawd,i never thought i was so quiet. Dannng,what happened to the bubbly chick 3 years ago? Well,i guess its safe to say ive grown up without actually realising it :) move over little miss becok,welcome little miss reserved. Sometimes even i get agitated as to how bloody quiet i can really be. Gaah,you'll just hafta go out with me to know how quiet i really am :) Sheesh. I guess TMR will be a killer. I'd be dead silent,i bet. Please don't mind me. I need time to adjust. Alotalotalotalot of time ah. Grrrrrrrrrrrr. Okay bye.

Keep holding on.

2009-03-23T16:32:00.002+08:00

Do you remember many years ago when we were little kids,how we used to play together everyday? It seems like yesterday-the childhood world of clowns and cotton candy and sunny days that never seemed to end. When we played hide and seek from four o'clock till dusk. Then sat outside on someone's stoop and listened to the crickets and slapped away mosquitoes and talked about our dreams and what we'd do when we grew up,till our mothers called us in. But those days passed by furtively. And we grew up,as children do. Until we reached a day when we assumed that we were too grown-up to play amidst the trees on summer nights. And when i see you now,you've changed in ways i can't explain.You're like a rose that blooms before time. And falls to the February frost. And i long once more,for the summer days when i stood by your porch and banged on your door. Won't you come out and play again?

-Amanda Dykstra

I miss being a kid. Young and innocent,without a worry in the world. I don't wanna grow up:(

Being an adult's tough job.This is justa random post. Goodbye.

Me minus you wouldn't make much sense.

2009-03-22T14:30:00.005+08:00

Heyheyhey im back after being MIA for like four days straight. Ive been either lazy or busy. I think it's more on the first one lah. HAHA! I just accepted like 10 people on my facebook page. Phewww! Tired already. Gaah. I was watching The Hills marathon on mtv the whole afternoon. Ok now,i really like Audrina. She's really jambu. Wheeeee~ Anyways the past few days have been hectic much. Been out and such. And you should really change your perangai,Fira. Ugh,no more repeats of the other day. Please eh.Oh and in case i dont update my blog,please support Earth by participating for Earth Hour on 28th March @ 8pm by switching off all your electricity for ONE HOUR. Please support. Gaaah. My head's really spinning now thanks to a friend who asked me to do this brain-racking survey on facebook. Sheesh.PENING! Imma prolly go rest now. I shall leave blogger with something i wrote two nights ago.

The way you make me feel

I cant formulate

I can see the intensity through your dreamy eyes

Being loved by you

I feel fortunate

I feel for you boy

Cos the heart never lies

Life without you is now unimaginable

Theres something in you thats intangible

And now im sitting by my window,thinking of you

I wouldnt know where i'd be at

If it weren't for you.

Just what i needed-Y.O.U

2009-03-18T12:46:00.004+08:00

Dear online diary,yesterday was superrrrr gerek(!) Outing with mister shuaige and family(w/o papa) was fun! Watched "Race to Witch Mountain" but it was just average:) After the movie,mrt-ed to Jeast then walked to IMM. Had lunch at "Secret Recipe". YUMMY! Apparently the people there were -____- but kinda funny though. HAHA. Lunch was my favourite part of yesterday's outing. After lunch,we walked around IMM then went to grocery shop at Giant. And thankyousomuch my sayang boy for helping Ma out with the groceries:) Awww,then we cabbed back home. All in all,i had a great day yesterday. I'll be accompanying mummy to her school later to drop off her assignments. Other than that,i guess today'll just be a 'stay at home and slack' kinda day. Tmr will be yet another outing i'm looking forward to! Most prolly we'll be meeting with mummy's BFF,Aunt Rose and her 3 year old god-son whom ive been missing tonnes! Can't wait for that. I will so bite his cheek. Fo sho! Alright,imma end off today's post with a random poem.

Keep me in your prayers everyday

And i'll guide you along the way

I know i'll have to go someday

And you'll have to go your way

I won't ever say goodbye

Cause i'll be in heaven

Watching you somewhere far away

In the deep blue sky

P.S: I'm loving where i'm at right now.

Be my best kept secret.

2009-03-16T19:40:00.005+08:00

Day: Monday

Singing to: I will be-Leona Lewis

Dear online-diary,today got up at eleven plus. Scrambled eggs for breakfast. Mtv-ed for abit then mummy decided to go to Bukit Batok to get her stuffs:) Got dressed and mrt-ed to bukit batok. Had lunch at BK and i had my usual favourite,Mushroom Swiss Burger:) YUMMY! Mummy then went off to get her stuffs and left Ben and Liya with me. We walk walk around Westmall for abit when some mats came and disturb us. Double Eww.Sorry not interested,kay bye. I got a couple of essential stuffs today. Bought my eyeliner and such. Ouh! I also bought this notebook with Wu Zun's picture on the cover! Gaaaah^^ *drools* H-O-T! This one not essentials ah Fira,nonsense only . But i'm really happy i got it okay. After that,we went to JP and i got my peach yogurt @ Yami Yogurt. Niiiiiiice~ I also got 2 tanktops today:) I'm a real happy girl today. No more stomach cramps and my appetite's back baby(!) Eat eat eat but still the same -___- I also bought my third twilight book,Eclipse,two days ago but i'm only at page twenty-eight(i think,its just my guesstimation) YEAAAAY! Sorry i havent been updating with a proper post,ive just been real busy with stuffs:) I miss alot of people at the moment: Sue,Atira,Radin,Eyya,Maira,Farah,Analee. If ya'll are reading this,your girl misses you! Also,i miss this budak very much ah,but i think he knows very well who he is. Hahahaha. I can't wait for TMR. I hope you are too. Okay,i'm going off now gotta go help my mum fix dinner. Goodnight.